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[my1andonlyeve]

I Wont...

I won't sleep
so I won't dream
because in the hours
between dusk and dawn
is the time when I miss you the most.

And I won't go
anywhere we've been
becasue being there alone
only makes my memories of you
that much clearer in my mind.

I won't stare at your picture
I'm so sick of crying
I'll burn them into the ashes
of the love we never shared
because you will never care.

I'm starting to forget your face
i wish i could forget your name
i realize now how pointless it is to love you
when you will never love me too.

Used to...

Stinging droplets
of crimson blood
a dirty secret,
a guilty pleasure,
finding peace only through pain.
Not caing much about life
seperated from everything,
I walk alone
but it's alright
I'm used to being
an invisible girl
in an empty world
used to being called
useless and withdrawn
used to being labeled a freak
used to pushing away
used to being forgotten
looked over
decieved
used to being nothing
used to being me.

Impossible....

I look at the stars
twinkling across this cold pacific sky
and all I can see
is the green of your eyes.

I stand in the rain
waiting for it to drown away
the memories of your face.

I had no defenses
not when it came to you
but love is most surely blind
because you were blind to me.

I tried so hard
to break down your walls
but I'm just a girl
and I can't do the impossible.

You've been hurt too many times
and love needs trust to survive
nevertheless I'll go on loving you
somehow I'll make you see
that you can't push me away.