the way things happen
it is very mysterious the way life works
how one thing opens as another closes
openers:
JJR;
you are not really what I look for but I am trying to just go with it
learn what I can from you
and listen to you talk dirty to me
it's fuking hot n "i lyk it"
i dont know what you want from me
but i hope it's not just to save yourself from boredom
gut says it is
since you could invite me to do these things with you
but i dont know your reasons for doing what you do
i kinda like not knowing sometimes
maybe having you all is not worth it
and you're trying to save me the time of figuring it out for myself
but i am starting to like you, i dont want to
secret lovers we are,
it IS exciting to make eyes at work and have no one know
thats the other kicker, lets not bring our shit into the office
i have a feeling I am going to regret us in the future
but i like you talk yourself up, trying to make yourself seem important and i just listen
just take it all in we will see what you do and how you act
sometimes i get these epiphanies of how my correct attitude should be towards a person
in regards to how they treat me and then i lose it
right now i know exactly how i should approach you and I think i got it down pat 85% of the time
but then i get weak
i get drunk and i want closeness
I want to BE UNDERSTOOD
i feel like i've gone a long time, but no
fuck that
fuck that pity bullshit
if i just accept people understand different parts of me
and there will probably never be a SINGLE person who gets that
just varying degrees of understanding then it's fine
fucking shit growing up thinking that there is this singular entity
so much pressure to perform constantly
I'm sorry my past lovers, realizing it now
to just accept what it really is
the reality
realizing, i have to keep this feeling
not revert to my selfish baby ways, the primal urge to be held
is that what it is? i didnt get held enough or something?
hah, still not getting held enough now
fuck hugs are so good
____
coming back to this next day
"fuck it, who cares"
it will all work out the way it needs to
I will continue to do my work for my self and others
and I trust in her to tell me when i've reached my destination
how one thing opens as another closes
openers:
JJR;
you are not really what I look for but I am trying to just go with it
learn what I can from you
and listen to you talk dirty to me
it's fuking hot n "i lyk it"
i dont know what you want from me
but i hope it's not just to save yourself from boredom
gut says it is
since you could invite me to do these things with you
but i dont know your reasons for doing what you do
i kinda like not knowing sometimes
maybe having you all is not worth it
and you're trying to save me the time of figuring it out for myself
but i am starting to like you, i dont want to
secret lovers we are,
it IS exciting to make eyes at work and have no one know
thats the other kicker, lets not bring our shit into the office
i have a feeling I am going to regret us in the future
but i like you talk yourself up, trying to make yourself seem important and i just listen
just take it all in we will see what you do and how you act
sometimes i get these epiphanies of how my correct attitude should be towards a person
in regards to how they treat me and then i lose it
right now i know exactly how i should approach you and I think i got it down pat 85% of the time
but then i get weak
i get drunk and i want closeness
I want to BE UNDERSTOOD
i feel like i've gone a long time, but no
fuck that
fuck that pity bullshit
if i just accept people understand different parts of me
and there will probably never be a SINGLE person who gets that
just varying degrees of understanding then it's fine
fucking shit growing up thinking that there is this singular entity
so much pressure to perform constantly
I'm sorry my past lovers, realizing it now
to just accept what it really is
the reality
realizing, i have to keep this feeling
not revert to my selfish baby ways, the primal urge to be held
is that what it is? i didnt get held enough or something?
hah, still not getting held enough now
fuck hugs are so good
____
coming back to this next day
"fuck it, who cares"
it will all work out the way it needs to
I will continue to do my work for my self and others
and I trust in her to tell me when i've reached my destination