just checking in

[mxjimmy125]

Well its me the one that most have forgotten about. For some thats not a bad thing. Well i was scheduled to come home for christmas i was supposed to leave on sunday but i just dont know if im gonna go now i have alot going on right now and i might be going on the ship and just leave for iraq early. If i decide to take the ship i will be leaving the 28th yes of this month. I was excited to get the chance to go home at first but then i kinda didnt want to go then i was up and down about it and as of now i dont know how i feel about it. It would be nice but at the same time its not something i want to do. Its not that i dont want to see the ones i care about its that i dont want to have to say good bye again ive done that once and i just dont want to do it again. Its a hard call to make cause well lets face it i am going to war and i might not get the chance to ever see you all again. Thats a risk of being in the Army at a time of war. Im just not the person you all remember im not the funny carefree jimmy anymore im growing out of my stupid immature personality and i am turning into a man of responsibility. Sometimes i wish i would have never joined the army cause i liked my life back home i always had a friend by my side and i was never lonley now that has all changed. Other than all that everything is going well my unit is almost all packed for iraq my fist-V is all loaded on the train and ready to deploy to fight. My m4 is all sighted and scoped ready to fire. MY nvg's and nightsight are ready to go i just got a bunch of new equipment to help the servival process. Sauder city is no fucking joke we are losing men out there like flies. Im also trying to get transfered to a colt team yes thats alot of walking with a ruck sack and alot of firefights but that where the action is and i want to be right in the middle of the action. I want to be there cause there is a better chance of promotion and i will be with my buddy sgt.Wayne he is my workout buddy and i want to pump the iron on my down time while in iraq. I just want to be where i know the rest of my team is looking out for me. I dont want to get left on the battle field wounded wondering if they are coming back for me or not. I also got my cls cretification this week i was in school all week for that (Cls Combat lifesaver). Well thats all for now i dont what else to say. so ill talk to you all later

sincerly PV2 Roach ( an army of one)