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c.r.y.i.n.g. again and don't know why
i think this is like a weekly ritual!
its so stupid its not even funny i just think of the stupidest things. things that will never happen.
ill never be myself even when it seems like it shows
ill never have a second where im not actually faking a smile
i go home and cry EVERYDAY!
cuz i know ill never be good enough for anyone
cuz im useless and everyone knows it
stop fxcking pretending if you don't like me then tell me.
im sick of pretending everything is ok when really its not.
i mean i love all my friends very dearly but some i just want to punch in the fxcking face. not my 'true' friends but like just my friends.. like foster, and spencer, i mean seriously they back stab my so much and idk why i even call them my friends.
all i want for christmas is to be happy..for once, and not fake it.
but no one will ever know cuz no matter how much anyone ever tries it just never seems to work. like with the whole ben thing it seemed like i was fine but im really not.
actually i have a lot of issues people just don't know about them. and i hate it.
why does every girl talk shxt about their friends..i know ive gona thorugh it at least once and i know every other igrl has to so if u sit here and tell me that u haven't then seriously get away from me cuz i know that is complete bullshit. if u tlak shxt about me or my friends..why? what did we ever fxcking do to you?
you know i have reasons for everything most of the time. but when i say i don't either i really don't or i just don't want to tell you.
sometimes i feel like i really don't have friends that everyone is just fxcking fake which i know is not true.and if u read this and get all mad about it, don't, cause im just speaking my mind and just cuz im talking about everyone doesn't mean its about you. so don't be a bitch if u comment (if u do at all)
oh well not like anyone cares anyways
i think this is like a weekly ritual!
its so stupid its not even funny i just think of the stupidest things. things that will never happen.
ill never be myself even when it seems like it shows
ill never have a second where im not actually faking a smile
i go home and cry EVERYDAY!
cuz i know ill never be good enough for anyone
cuz im useless and everyone knows it
stop fxcking pretending if you don't like me then tell me.
im sick of pretending everything is ok when really its not.
i mean i love all my friends very dearly but some i just want to punch in the fxcking face. not my 'true' friends but like just my friends.. like foster, and spencer, i mean seriously they back stab my so much and idk why i even call them my friends.
all i want for christmas is to be happy..for once, and not fake it.
but no one will ever know cuz no matter how much anyone ever tries it just never seems to work. like with the whole ben thing it seemed like i was fine but im really not.
actually i have a lot of issues people just don't know about them. and i hate it.
why does every girl talk shxt about their friends..i know ive gona thorugh it at least once and i know every other igrl has to so if u sit here and tell me that u haven't then seriously get away from me cuz i know that is complete bullshit. if u tlak shxt about me or my friends..why? what did we ever fxcking do to you?
you know i have reasons for everything most of the time. but when i say i don't either i really don't or i just don't want to tell you.
sometimes i feel like i really don't have friends that everyone is just fxcking fake which i know is not true.and if u read this and get all mad about it, don't, cause im just speaking my mind and just cuz im talking about everyone doesn't mean its about you. so don't be a bitch if u comment (if u do at all)
oh well not like anyone cares anyways