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Ok so i haven't written in here in a long time because i've been so happy, busy and just not feeling like i needed to write in here. But ther day has come. The that i though NEVER was going to come. And what hurts the most is that it was so sudden, so quick, it shocked me and tore me apart. Peter broke up with me last night. It was the hardest thing to hear. I couldn't believe it i kept thinking that it was going to be a dream. I don't understand at all. How can he say that he still loves me but hurt me so bad. Shred my heart apart. He was the best thing to ever happen to me. He was my everything, my world, my life!! Now after being with him for 8 months and going through one of the hardest times during summer i thought we could have done anything. I thought that if we could get through summer than there wasn't anything that could have gotten in the way. But apparently that wasn't how he felt. I just don't understand why it was so sudden. There was no signs or anything. I think that's why it hurts so bad because i didn't see it coming and i was soooo happy. I didn't think there was anything wrong. But whatever hopefully i get to talk to him soon because i just have so many unanaswered things. I was so suprised that i didn't get to ask him any questions. I am so confused right now and so hurt. Man and all the things that i was planning just go down the drain. Christmas presents trips. It just sucks now basically. My life is so lonely and so hard without him. But i can't write anymore because it is just making me cry more and more. I am going to go eat something and see if this time i can keep it down.