wow...
so in the meantime, i've been talking to my mother...
she's adamant about me driving because she doesn't have a license and doesn't want me to end up stuck like she is. she insists that i let her pay for another round of driving lessons. part of my pride doesn't want to accept it; she already gave me a good chunk of money toward the last ones, and look how much good they did. i feel like i'm wasting her money. but the other part of my pride wants to not be stuck like my mother is.
i'm still feeling really distraught because i'm worried it'll end up doing no good. if it does work out, i'm going to insist on paying her back. i feel like an asshole taking the money to begin with, but i was really looking forward to driving. i need all the changes in my life that will come with being able to drive because i also feel like an asshole without them.
for the moment, i'm just trying to make it through the night.
she's adamant about me driving because she doesn't have a license and doesn't want me to end up stuck like she is. she insists that i let her pay for another round of driving lessons. part of my pride doesn't want to accept it; she already gave me a good chunk of money toward the last ones, and look how much good they did. i feel like i'm wasting her money. but the other part of my pride wants to not be stuck like my mother is.
i'm still feeling really distraught because i'm worried it'll end up doing no good. if it does work out, i'm going to insist on paying her back. i feel like an asshole taking the money to begin with, but i was really looking forward to driving. i need all the changes in my life that will come with being able to drive because i also feel like an asshole without them.
for the moment, i'm just trying to make it through the night.