*sigh*
its funny how u spend months of ur life jus sittin around & watchin the days go by, not living ur life, thinking of someone thousands of miles away
4get dis im not even gonna give it form or anythin ama jus type...need 2 let out some thoughts
4 so long all i did was think bout leo, wonder of what we'd do when he would get bak, plan out all da activites: the wedding, the honeymoon, where we would live, i was gonna pick out an apartment 4 him when he got bak, everything. yeah i kno it sounds insane, but i was jus so infatuated with the idea that me & him were meant 2 be & there was no one else.
after a while of jus being tired of sittin around, i started talkin 2 people, never anything serious because i was still stuck on the idea of leo. finally i decided 2 try sumthing. i went out wit mario.
i screwed up & didnt tell leo bout it, he went thru my email, he found out. i cried nights & days, in skool & out. me & mario broke up on valentines day. that same nite, me & leo got bak 2gether. i never told mario bout it cuz i couldnt help it. im startin 2 take notice of how much ive been keeping from people, wit da best intentions, but in da worst scenarios. i went thru so much wit leo, went thru so much wit mario & it jus never ends wit da both of em.
angelo comes along. out of no where. i think hes da only person dat ive known 4 so long & i still keep in contact now & then. ive known him longer than valerie, & thats sayin sumthin. so i decide. u kno what. ama live my life. i have no attachments 2 anyone. i wanna kno what it is 2 have a real relationship. one where i wont have 2 hide. one where i can go out & not worry about someone seeing me. one where i can tell the whole world that i have a boyfriend. where i can just be happy & be myself. where i dont have 2 worry about someone finding out. its all i want. angelo is such an awesome person. is it so wrong 2 be with a person that u care about?? tell me. is it??
To "anonymous": im not gonna go down 2 ur level & try 2 make u feel bad. i kno what im doing with my life, i kno where im going and where i want 2 end up. i dont need 2 explain myself 2 u. the only person that can question that is Heavenly Father or Jesus. u are neither.
4get dis im not even gonna give it form or anythin ama jus type...need 2 let out some thoughts
4 so long all i did was think bout leo, wonder of what we'd do when he would get bak, plan out all da activites: the wedding, the honeymoon, where we would live, i was gonna pick out an apartment 4 him when he got bak, everything. yeah i kno it sounds insane, but i was jus so infatuated with the idea that me & him were meant 2 be & there was no one else.
after a while of jus being tired of sittin around, i started talkin 2 people, never anything serious because i was still stuck on the idea of leo. finally i decided 2 try sumthing. i went out wit mario.
i screwed up & didnt tell leo bout it, he went thru my email, he found out. i cried nights & days, in skool & out. me & mario broke up on valentines day. that same nite, me & leo got bak 2gether. i never told mario bout it cuz i couldnt help it. im startin 2 take notice of how much ive been keeping from people, wit da best intentions, but in da worst scenarios. i went thru so much wit leo, went thru so much wit mario & it jus never ends wit da both of em.
angelo comes along. out of no where. i think hes da only person dat ive known 4 so long & i still keep in contact now & then. ive known him longer than valerie, & thats sayin sumthin. so i decide. u kno what. ama live my life. i have no attachments 2 anyone. i wanna kno what it is 2 have a real relationship. one where i wont have 2 hide. one where i can go out & not worry about someone seeing me. one where i can tell the whole world that i have a boyfriend. where i can just be happy & be myself. where i dont have 2 worry about someone finding out. its all i want. angelo is such an awesome person. is it so wrong 2 be with a person that u care about?? tell me. is it??
To "anonymous": im not gonna go down 2 ur level & try 2 make u feel bad. i kno what im doing with my life, i kno where im going and where i want 2 end up. i dont need 2 explain myself 2 u. the only person that can question that is Heavenly Father or Jesus. u are neither.