"You lost your trust..."
Big/good changes in my life are taking place in myself internally as well as externally.
I find things out about people everyday that make me more and more glad I severed ties between us. Some of these things kinda hurt but then I remind myself where they're coming from and all of a sudden these comments completely lose their legitimacy and justification. He's a kid who doesn't know what he wants in every sense of that phrase- he doesn't have a moral backbone...doesn't know who he is...changes his mind every two minutes about everything. I can't trust him. I'll be nice but I won't be emotionally open.
I hate to sound like "Almost Famous" here lol but I've been wanting to be around places/people that are real. I want to get away from Johnson County and Kansas and all its perfection and face and handle real issues. Live amongst real people who know that worthy and valuable things in life cannot be bought. Certain people in life think that once you have this and that in the future, then you'll be happy. And I'll be the first one to say that that's not the case. I've been on both sides of the fence and while shopping for nice clothes can be fun or whatever, the brightest and most beautiful part of my life was when I was young and we weren't financially well off. If your goal when you get out of college is to make a lot of money and live the high life, I'll save you the time and effort - you're going after the wrong thing. I promise. Being wealthy isn't a bad thing, but if you're basing your happiness in it then you're just fooling yourself.
If you ever have the chance to travel (especially internationally), do it. It'll broaden your views and perception on life dramatically. I had to go watch "Maria Full of Grace" for the 8,000th time this morning for one of my classes and it's just always so refreshing to get your mind out of your petty little problems, away from your boring surroundings and enlighten yourself on the events that are happening outside of your little world.
I find things out about people everyday that make me more and more glad I severed ties between us. Some of these things kinda hurt but then I remind myself where they're coming from and all of a sudden these comments completely lose their legitimacy and justification. He's a kid who doesn't know what he wants in every sense of that phrase- he doesn't have a moral backbone...doesn't know who he is...changes his mind every two minutes about everything. I can't trust him. I'll be nice but I won't be emotionally open.
I hate to sound like "Almost Famous" here lol but I've been wanting to be around places/people that are real. I want to get away from Johnson County and Kansas and all its perfection and face and handle real issues. Live amongst real people who know that worthy and valuable things in life cannot be bought. Certain people in life think that once you have this and that in the future, then you'll be happy. And I'll be the first one to say that that's not the case. I've been on both sides of the fence and while shopping for nice clothes can be fun or whatever, the brightest and most beautiful part of my life was when I was young and we weren't financially well off. If your goal when you get out of college is to make a lot of money and live the high life, I'll save you the time and effort - you're going after the wrong thing. I promise. Being wealthy isn't a bad thing, but if you're basing your happiness in it then you're just fooling yourself.
If you ever have the chance to travel (especially internationally), do it. It'll broaden your views and perception on life dramatically. I had to go watch "Maria Full of Grace" for the 8,000th time this morning for one of my classes and it's just always so refreshing to get your mind out of your petty little problems, away from your boring surroundings and enlighten yourself on the events that are happening outside of your little world.