time to start updating this sucka again
i'm stuck in life:
1. i don't know what i want to major in
1a. the thing that I would want to major in (linguistics) isn't offered here
1b. i could in theory transfer, but is it worth it?
2. i don't know what i want to do with my life, what would make me happy
3. i've convinced myself that i'm going to be alone for the rest of my life
4. whenever i talk to my parents on the phone, i get really uncomfortable (i don't know why)
5. nothing feels right in life in general
i miss california tons....i think about it way too much. i'm always checking the weather there, looking at pictures of it, looking at the live webcam from the lawrence hall of science, etc etc. i feel like i suffocate my friends here with talking about it. the east coast just isn't right for me. it feels so stuffy, so constricting. i feel like i can't breath here. i just want to be back there
i got a haircut tonight. it's pretty short. we'll see how this goes
i'm leave for europe on sunday. i'm going for my spring break, 2 weeks. i'm going to amsterdam, berlin, and munich. i should be really excited, but for some reason i just feel really apathetic about it all. i'm sure that once i'm on the plane i'll be really pumped, but right now i dont' feel much about it
i've recently realized that i have some sort of undiagnosed sleep apnia and have had it for the last few years. every night i wake up about every hour or so, if not more. i thought that everyone did that, but apparently they don't. it must be why i'm always so tired (and have been tired for the last few years). here's to getting this diagnosed / taken care of this summer
i like weed way too much
i always feel alone, even if i'm surrounded by friends
i'm looking forward to this summer a lot. 3 months at home will be heavenly
i want a cat, really badly
i miss san francisco (i already said that, but i needed to re-emphasize it)
i'm also looking forward to this summer because i'm finally going to make myself go to a therapist. maybe that'll help with my desperation
i'm finally finding myself in a good group of friends here and it's such a new experience that it scares me, almost to the point where i don't like it?
i'm so over cold weather
1. i don't know what i want to major in
1a. the thing that I would want to major in (linguistics) isn't offered here
1b. i could in theory transfer, but is it worth it?
2. i don't know what i want to do with my life, what would make me happy
3. i've convinced myself that i'm going to be alone for the rest of my life
4. whenever i talk to my parents on the phone, i get really uncomfortable (i don't know why)
5. nothing feels right in life in general
i miss california tons....i think about it way too much. i'm always checking the weather there, looking at pictures of it, looking at the live webcam from the lawrence hall of science, etc etc. i feel like i suffocate my friends here with talking about it. the east coast just isn't right for me. it feels so stuffy, so constricting. i feel like i can't breath here. i just want to be back there
i got a haircut tonight. it's pretty short. we'll see how this goes
i'm leave for europe on sunday. i'm going for my spring break, 2 weeks. i'm going to amsterdam, berlin, and munich. i should be really excited, but for some reason i just feel really apathetic about it all. i'm sure that once i'm on the plane i'll be really pumped, but right now i dont' feel much about it
i've recently realized that i have some sort of undiagnosed sleep apnia and have had it for the last few years. every night i wake up about every hour or so, if not more. i thought that everyone did that, but apparently they don't. it must be why i'm always so tired (and have been tired for the last few years). here's to getting this diagnosed / taken care of this summer
i like weed way too much
i always feel alone, even if i'm surrounded by friends
i'm looking forward to this summer a lot. 3 months at home will be heavenly
i want a cat, really badly
i miss san francisco (i already said that, but i needed to re-emphasize it)
i'm also looking forward to this summer because i'm finally going to make myself go to a therapist. maybe that'll help with my desperation
i'm finally finding myself in a good group of friends here and it's such a new experience that it scares me, almost to the point where i don't like it?
i'm so over cold weather