once i wanted to be the greatest....
i'm going through a little bit of a life crisis right now. colleges didn't go my way, at all. i'm having a hard time dealing with that fact. i got rejected by nearly every school i really wnated to go to save three where i was i was waitlisted - bowdoin, carleton, and wesleyan, all of which i would absolutely LOVE to go to. so i'm going to be waiting on those three and also appealing UCLA, but otherwise it looks like i'm going to UCSB. not a bad fate at all, but i didn't work as hard as i did throughout high school to "just" go to ucsb. i know i'll have a great time there and i'll get an amazing education, but it's beyond frustrating. all i can think about is what went wrong? why didn't colleges want me? why was i not desirable enough to them while others were? it's weird to be able to think about all of this and genuinely say that this has been the biggest disappointment of my life.
i'm not going to school tomorrow. it's depressing being around people that got in to these amazing schools that i was rejected by. i can't deal with it. i'm going to go to san francisco by myself, with ipod in tow. my current plan is to go to the MoMA and just have a lot of time by myself to think. i also just want to wander, to explore san francisco. maybe make my way to golden gate park.... it's supposed to be raining lots tomorrow, but i'll have an umbrella. i feel like i really need this to be able to think some stuff through and figure out what's going on in my life right now.
i may seem a little bit mellow-dramatic to some of you right now, but this was something that was very very very important to me. one of the most important things in my life up until this point. i know things will turn out alright in the end. i will still do whatever i want with my life in the end, it's just frustrating beyond comprehension
so wish me luck. hopefully i won't drown in the rain. hopefully i won't get lost on muni trying to get to golden gate park. hopefully i'll come back more level-headed than when i will have left. hopefully i won't lose myself. hopefully i will figure this all out.
Once I wanted to be the greatest
No wind or waterfall could stop me
And then came the rush of the flood
The stars at night turned you to dust
Melt me down
To big black armour
Leave no trace
Of grace
Just in your honor
Lower me down
That corporate slob
Make a watch
For a space in town
For the lack of the dreds
Of my bed I've been sleeping
Lower me down
Pin me in
Secure the grounds
For the later parade
Once I wanted to be the greatest
Two fists of solid rock
When things I couldn't explain
Any feelings
Lower me down
Pin me in
Secure the grounds
For the lack of the drugs
My faith had been sleeping
For the later parade
Once I wanted to be the greatest
No wind or water fall could stop me
And then came the rush of the flood
The stars at night turned you to dust
**edit**
i've decided that this will be me in 12 months time:
fuck you shaving. fuck you haircuts.
i'm not going to school tomorrow. it's depressing being around people that got in to these amazing schools that i was rejected by. i can't deal with it. i'm going to go to san francisco by myself, with ipod in tow. my current plan is to go to the MoMA and just have a lot of time by myself to think. i also just want to wander, to explore san francisco. maybe make my way to golden gate park.... it's supposed to be raining lots tomorrow, but i'll have an umbrella. i feel like i really need this to be able to think some stuff through and figure out what's going on in my life right now.
i may seem a little bit mellow-dramatic to some of you right now, but this was something that was very very very important to me. one of the most important things in my life up until this point. i know things will turn out alright in the end. i will still do whatever i want with my life in the end, it's just frustrating beyond comprehension
so wish me luck. hopefully i won't drown in the rain. hopefully i won't get lost on muni trying to get to golden gate park. hopefully i'll come back more level-headed than when i will have left. hopefully i won't lose myself. hopefully i will figure this all out.
Once I wanted to be the greatest
No wind or waterfall could stop me
And then came the rush of the flood
The stars at night turned you to dust
Melt me down
To big black armour
Leave no trace
Of grace
Just in your honor
Lower me down
That corporate slob
Make a watch
For a space in town
For the lack of the dreds
Of my bed I've been sleeping
Lower me down
Pin me in
Secure the grounds
For the later parade
Once I wanted to be the greatest
Two fists of solid rock
When things I couldn't explain
Any feelings
Lower me down
Pin me in
Secure the grounds
For the lack of the drugs
My faith had been sleeping
For the later parade
Once I wanted to be the greatest
No wind or water fall could stop me
And then came the rush of the flood
The stars at night turned you to dust
**edit**
i've decided that this will be me in 12 months time:
fuck you shaving. fuck you haircuts.