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i really hate my life!!! my parents are being the biggest asses ever!! i am trying hard to think my life doesn't suck and yea but god damn my parents!!! they just wanna ruin my life. they took the internet away from me just cuz i missed school today and didn't work on my fucking english project and all of a sudden i wanna drop out of school. I didn't go to school today cuz i am sick and my dad just thinks i was lieing, but im not and i didn't work on my project cuz one i don't give a shit about school and two cuz i don't get the project and it was due today and i just don't get it. They don't understand!!! the internet is the only way i can talk to anyone about my problems and not have the whole fucking world know!!! and now all of a sudden..they just wanna take everything away from me and i just know this year there will be no party. my grandma wants me to have a dinner..screw the dinner!!! i don't want that!!!! i am not 70 years old.. i wanna have fun!! i wanna be fucking funme and have with my friends, but no!!! no party this year cuz we have no fucking money!! wut i don't get is my stepmom gets to go to las vegas and layla gets pretty much anything she wants..wut am i? chop liver?!!!! just don't pay attention to the one who does like everything and i never get attention!! no wonder i act like a freak at school and try to get attention and i still don't really get it.. all i get is a stare kinda thing and a laugh. everyone loves layla and my stepmom more then me. i try to talk to my dad about my problems and he doesnt give a shit. the only one i think that actually cares is my mom, but its hard to talk to her cuz shes always worried about me..which i am glad someone does, but it gets annoying after awhile. i just feel like i don't belong in this family or world. i feel like i have to be something i am not..my parents expect me to be this smart girl all cuz layla is smarter then me and shes only two. i am just useless to my friends and family. i just know i am.