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i just realized something. whenever it rains... im always depressed. i haven't been really depressed but all of a sudden when it rains... i am depressed. i don't feel loved anymore from anyone...not even my own family..well maybe layla but she doesn't really count cuz shes two and she loves everyone. I am sick of everyone making fun of me. Everyone sees me as this girl whose in love with every guy she sees and thats so not true..maybe last year but if you realized it.. i have changed so much..well i think so and i can't do anything about it and i know some of you said to talk to my parents..well i tried to and they are no help..especailly my dad and mom. My dad just tells me to move on and my mom somtimes helps but then its so hard to talk to her cuz everything i say ends up bad. I was listening to the radio today coming back from my grandmas house and i just had this sad look on my face and my dad is just like Are you thinking about Andrew?!!! and i am just like ummm...sure why not? and my dad doesn't ask me whats wrong or anything.. just says to move on...well.. i have been trying...and i don't know if its working or not. Noone helps at all.. only chris and somethings i can't even talk to him cuz its sometimes about him and i just know if i talk to him about him it will end up bad and i don't want it to be like last year all over again. i tried avoiding that and i know for a fact he doesn't like me unless he is hiding it and if he does like me... hes sure hiding it really good. He's confusing..so is a billion other guys.ahhh!!! i can't get away from this song...Do you have time to listen to me whine? i am one of those.....somethin somethin somethin.sometimes i give myself the creeps..sometimes my mind plays tricks on me. ahhh!!!! i miss chris now!!!! it was funny..the otherday in spanish.. i was talkin to him and he was sining this song and now im gonna cry cuz i miss him so much. someone help me get out of this nightmare!!