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i think i... maybe not so much pride myself on as am very grateful for my ability to generally just turn off any real connections to other people so as to not really be effected by their words/actions/opinions
and as a result of this "ability" (gift, curse, call it what you will) i'm very rarely hurt
and i've grown accustomed to that
and now
when something stupid and insignificant that shouldn't bother me hurts my feelings
i feel disgusted with myself
i've become one of those whiney ass people who need badly to realize that their little problems that seem to mean so much now aren't gonna mean jack shit in 5 years, or a year, or even a month most likely
with the obvious exception being that i almost never whine to people about shit like this cuz i don't like people to know shit gets to me sometimes
so yeah
anyway
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continuing with the mood of this post
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so i do as i please
and i lie through my teeth
someone might get hurt
but it won't be me
she'll prolly feel cheap
but i'll just feel free
and a little bit empty
and as a result of this "ability" (gift, curse, call it what you will) i'm very rarely hurt
and i've grown accustomed to that
and now
when something stupid and insignificant that shouldn't bother me hurts my feelings
i feel disgusted with myself
i've become one of those whiney ass people who need badly to realize that their little problems that seem to mean so much now aren't gonna mean jack shit in 5 years, or a year, or even a month most likely
with the obvious exception being that i almost never whine to people about shit like this cuz i don't like people to know shit gets to me sometimes
so yeah
anyway
.
.
continuing with the mood of this post
.
.
so i do as i please
and i lie through my teeth
someone might get hurt
but it won't be me
she'll prolly feel cheap
but i'll just feel free
and a little bit empty