I really hate the world sometimes...
It's been quite awhile since my last post, and whuddayaknow when I do post it's depressing. The song I keep hearing in my head today is "Make the World Go Away." Just when things start to go my way... BBBOOOOOOOMMMMMMM! Another catastrophy. Confused? I'll tell you later, but I'll warn you: I can only tell you enough to leave you wanting more (not my choice).
On top of all of this, I hafta find a job soon b4 I run out of money.
Tim reminded me today that my birthday is in a week and a day... To which I said that I really don't see anything worth looking forward to. What a really great b-day present I got today... The world just really fucking sucks sometimes, ya know?
Today's events were rough, yes, but the thing that has me most upset about the situation is the underlying suggestions it brought up...
I feel as though I can only COMPLETELY trust one person in this town, and this makes me so fucking sad that all I've done is cry in Tim's shoulder all fucking day long... just at the mere thought! At one point I asked him why people seem to hate me so much. He told me that they don't really, it's just that I'm outspoken and I trust to easily, so I'm always vulnerable to blows such as these.
With Tim, I finally regained my childlike vulnerability and trustworthiness of good in humankind, only to be brutally reminded that this trustworthiness is COMPLETELY invalid.
Can someone please take this world with all of its backstabbings away?!
On top of all of this, I hafta find a job soon b4 I run out of money.
Tim reminded me today that my birthday is in a week and a day... To which I said that I really don't see anything worth looking forward to. What a really great b-day present I got today... The world just really fucking sucks sometimes, ya know?
Today's events were rough, yes, but the thing that has me most upset about the situation is the underlying suggestions it brought up...
I feel as though I can only COMPLETELY trust one person in this town, and this makes me so fucking sad that all I've done is cry in Tim's shoulder all fucking day long... just at the mere thought! At one point I asked him why people seem to hate me so much. He told me that they don't really, it's just that I'm outspoken and I trust to easily, so I'm always vulnerable to blows such as these.
With Tim, I finally regained my childlike vulnerability and trustworthiness of good in humankind, only to be brutally reminded that this trustworthiness is COMPLETELY invalid.
Can someone please take this world with all of its backstabbings away?!