ughhh
Seriously I got to thinking, 2005 overall has just sucked. On my
birthday, we got news that Adam Psolas brother Ian was involved in a
tragic accident while at his military base in North Carolina. At
first adam thought he was going to be okay. But a week later it
was a given that he wasn't going to make it. Ian died at the age
of 22. It was hard because a bunch of us knew him since we were
little, and we used to look up to him. Kind of like a big
brother. Then everything happened with cory, and now
leanne. Even though i hardly knew her, its still shocking because
youd see her in the halls at school and she's someone from your
hometown. You wonder how something could have been so bad for her
that the only solution was to take her own life. Its just
shocking. And today I just found out my godfather died from his
injuries in a car accident he sustained last thursday. Ive dealt
with so much death in my lifetime, i just wish it would all end.
I hate going to funerals, and after with what happened with cory, Its
hard for me to go to the cemetary because he's buried really close to
my grandma. My grandma should still be alive right now. She
died at the age off 66. She should still be here to have
watched all of her grandchildren graduate and to see my older sister
get married. Every day when i was little my mom would drop me off
at her house so she could babysit me, and Every Tuesday and
Thursday we would go to merricks in downtown ishpeming, and have lunch
with her friends. I still miss her to this day, because she was
one of the closest friends i have ever had. I would visit her
grave on a constant basis, but lately I havent because its just to much
to deal with now. I cannot wait til the year closes out.
Hopefully 2006 will be a lot better.
Sunny days seem to hurt the most
Wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go
See your smile, I see your face
I hear you laughing in the rain
Still can't believe your gone
It ain't fair you died to young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowing, no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder, who you'd be today
Would you see the world
Would you chase your dreams
Settle down with a family
I wonder what would you name your babies
Someday's the sky's so blue
I feel like I can talk to you
And I know it might sound crazy
It ain't fair you died to young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowing, no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder, who you'd be today
Today Today Today
Today Today Today
Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
The only thing that gives me hope
Is I know, I'll see you again someday
Someday, someday
Sunny days seem to hurt the most
Wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go
See your smile, I see your face
I hear you laughing in the rain
Still can't believe your gone
It ain't fair you died to young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowing, no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder, who you'd be today
Would you see the world
Would you chase your dreams
Settle down with a family
I wonder what would you name your babies
Someday's the sky's so blue
I feel like I can talk to you
And I know it might sound crazy
It ain't fair you died to young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowing, no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder, who you'd be today
Today Today Today
Today Today Today
Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
The only thing that gives me hope
Is I know, I'll see you again someday
Someday, someday