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I just dont fucking care anymore. Im gonna have to learn not to give a shit, and to just not be there for anyone anymore. Because i always try to be there for my friends, but in reality when i think about it, i only have 3 or 4 ppl that really look out for me now. And those individuals will be the only ones that ill be there for now. And thats sad really, because Ill sit there and listen to a problem someone has, and well, in the end, I get shit on. Im sick of my friends saying all this shit to me, and in the end, none of its true. Its superficial. Complete bullshit. If you dont mean it, then dont say it. Plain and simple. I get bitched at for not calling anyone, well how about when i call and leave messages on ur phones and u dont even bother to call back. I make the effort to meet up with ppl i havent seen in a while, and they dont even have the goddamn common courtesy to call me back. Then when i ask why they didnt call back, ill get some lame ass excuse. Dont ever say that Im not there for anyone anymore, because ive made the effort. And most of you are to goddamn blind to see that. So this is me saying I dont give a damn anymore. Dont EVER accuse me of not making the effort, because I have. How many times I have been there for my so called friends? In my opinion, one to many. Im not a doctor phil. Im not someone that you can just lay all of your problems on, then just shit on me afterwards. If this has hurt anyone, well the point of this is that the truth hurts. Doesn't it? Most of you dont even have a clue what im going through right now, and it has added to the fact that i am so frustrated right now. I am not looking for sympathy or anyhting of that sort, im just setting the record straight. Dont say shit to me that you dont mean, im fed up. And right now, ireally dont care who ive pissed off or have upset, because maybe thasts how i feel right now. Deal with it. Im giving you a taste of your own medicine. And for those of you who think this is geard towards you, well its not. You can ask me if it is, and ill tell you striaght up whether it is or not. Truth is, im only going to be there for the people that actually care, because they have been there for me.