{when things I like happen}
i. monday- it was labor day took jessica and josette to the beach. we were entertained by 100 people dressed in tunics and robes, celebrating life and freedom. {tambarines were included} We found opalescent seashells, and inhaled the power that was the ocean. {you should've seen} Those white waves, those white waves- they pulled it out of me. And they took me for a long ride. Unfortunatly at the end of our day both jessica&josette were stung by jelly fish. jessie has been home all week. {fever}
ii. tuesday- I called mom. I think she would've cried, I know her teary voice. We remembered pink peonies, peppermints, and a certain rose bush together. I told her, "she never forgot you know, {about me} I would always get a bday&xmas card. Maybe there would be money in there, maybe all there would be was an "Love You". What I didn't tell mom is I'm going to miss that. Hell, I already do. {tuesday was my nana's birthday}
iii. wensday- mail day, got the best letters from some great girls I know. thank you, oh thank you. I've got to get my butt in gear and write everyone I owe pretty ink on crinkled paper. {lavender star you didn't reply to my last email. I need something ;) I outdid myself and I want to show you.}
iv. thursday- part A.) Deanna called. She is so sad. I wish I could goto New Orleans and make her laugh. And put her butt in my car so we could drive to nowhere like we use to. The trials we have been through, together and apart. There are rips in our friendship, we have stiches. {fat&crooked, they look like love to me} Our last falling out where we were silent for months, in the end the tears and apologies bound us ever close. We bicker, and get on each other's nerves at times. But we laugh&love, isn't all this the defination of sister? She deserves more than phonecalls. //
part B.) Someone I haven't talked to in almost 2 years phoned. We talked all day. I wrote their new number in my journal over&over {2 pages} I'm afraid to tell my special circle that this person and I are talking again. Deep inside where my gems think I don't see, they will mumble black clouds, and ruin. So why tell? Because... I need them to hear the returned joy in my voice{in my belly} I want to share this glee. But I think I'm the only one that sees it as so.
v. today - nothing specail, I only remember waking up from a dream where an orange super nova was glowing on my lawn. Than it turned into an old car backed up so close to my front door. I believe all was orange because yesterday "that person" told me orange was their new favorite color. It use to be blue. I just want to goto bed. But I'm oddly waiting for the thunderstorm that is coming this afternoon. {so the weatherman said.} If it does pour down and the skies go gray with wind- I'm opening all the windows and turning off all the lights. A tiny tornado inside my livingroom. I want my things to flow, fall, and move. Florida storms are different than those remembered as a child. I crave for an Oklahoma-style storm.
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So, my kitten the naughty sasha needs to be declawed. She still runs hunchbacked&crokked. I yell 'no, naughty thing!' when she claws the sofa. So now she claws the carpet. I'm trying to teach her to claw at the stained parts. {and} I, dork - sit and wonder if there's a support group for the movie 'the two towers' can't stop watching it- nearly a 100 times. Did get a break though. Finally got to see 'the good girl' I feel like stealing it from Best Buy. {I have no money to get it} I love this movie too, Cinemax doesn't play it enough. << justine: only the devil knows... >>
My plan until 4pm?
stare at the special(beautiful)things on my mantle.
curl up/close eyes/let myself fall - half concious.
{this on repeat;this on repeat}
gonna open you up
gonna walk inside
gonna free your mind
gonna make you cry.
xx .m