Just watched "Requiem for a Dream"...
I wrote what is below in a matter of ten minutes. I think it is one of the most spiritual thoughs I have ever had. It makes ense too. Not bullshit. Not politics. Hkronos Quartetear me out and respond.
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Can one define morality. What is it? Who decides it? Is it decided by society? By individuals? What are your "morals"? can you describe them? or are they too many? Are they very complicated and hard to understand on the surface? Is that even a bad thing?
Where do you morals come from? What is wrong for you? Where'd that come from? Obviously, its from your experiences. You are a collective of your experiences, compiled together to base decisions off what you've already done. Right? You can't go and do something, if you don't know it's there. We are our environment. You are what you've eaten. So, your morals can only be what you know. Only what you've learned and experienced.
What is education then? I mean formalized, socialized, state education. Education is just someone recounting to you the experiences and of others. What others have done. Today, we don't really learn for ourselves today. We don't experience. We are merely recounted the lives of others. Nobody lives for themselves today. Nobody learns for themselves.
So, your morals are the merely a collection of your ancestors experiences fuzzed and blurred, and passed down like a long game of telephone. Your teacher's parents and ancestors. Your friends ancestors experiences. Your hero's experiences. You are only other people, unless you've done something yourself.
Now confront the following question. Ask yourself honestly. No facade, no social qualms. No one can answer but yourself. And the only person who will know this answer is you:
Have you lived? Have you experienced? What have you done? Beyond just amassing material possessions. Beyond school. School is just other people's lives. What have you done, that is important enough for someone else to be taught about it? Have you lived?
Well, my answer is no. I haven't No lies. No qualms. I'm not going to pretend to be something important. I don't know if I will be either. But I want to be. I will no longer be lulled into a false sense of economic complacency. Happiness is not enough for me. I will not be sucked in by nice cars, new shoes. Not by children and not by a future career. My life will be mine.
Sure, those things may happen, and will be nice. But thats not my end goal.
What are we, then, if nothing but others? We are nothing without others.
So fuck the individual. I am not an individual. I am one of many. I am not original. I am just,
I just am. And that is enough for me. I consist of others. That is all I am. A vehicle for others lives, and you too someday will thus become a vehicle for my life, and billions of others. Your children will too. And their children.
Maybe this is what Buddhists mean when they say we are all connected.
No wonder Kaczynski left civilization. It wouldn't let him live! So fuck socialization. The individual is not the enemy, and neither is the group. They are not opposites. It is the individual that comprises the group. I am one of many.
Maybe, we become individuals upon death. We have our own identity, in what we have done. Some more than others.
Conversely, we join others. My experiences mix with you experiences, in the life of your children. When we die, we really do all become one. Our lives are intertwined and mixed with others, in the lives of others still.
Fuck.
My head hurts a bit now.
I don't want to stop writing, this pseudo realization is heavy, but it makes sense.
yeah this all does make sense, but it still leaves me with no meaning.
or at least no morals.
I know why I'll live, just not how yet.
But Why was the big fucking question. I think I have that one out of the way now.
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Can one define morality. What is it? Who decides it? Is it decided by society? By individuals? What are your "morals"? can you describe them? or are they too many? Are they very complicated and hard to understand on the surface? Is that even a bad thing?
Where do you morals come from? What is wrong for you? Where'd that come from? Obviously, its from your experiences. You are a collective of your experiences, compiled together to base decisions off what you've already done. Right? You can't go and do something, if you don't know it's there. We are our environment. You are what you've eaten. So, your morals can only be what you know. Only what you've learned and experienced.
What is education then? I mean formalized, socialized, state education. Education is just someone recounting to you the experiences and of others. What others have done. Today, we don't really learn for ourselves today. We don't experience. We are merely recounted the lives of others. Nobody lives for themselves today. Nobody learns for themselves.
So, your morals are the merely a collection of your ancestors experiences fuzzed and blurred, and passed down like a long game of telephone. Your teacher's parents and ancestors. Your friends ancestors experiences. Your hero's experiences. You are only other people, unless you've done something yourself.
Now confront the following question. Ask yourself honestly. No facade, no social qualms. No one can answer but yourself. And the only person who will know this answer is you:
Have you lived? Have you experienced? What have you done? Beyond just amassing material possessions. Beyond school. School is just other people's lives. What have you done, that is important enough for someone else to be taught about it? Have you lived?
Well, my answer is no. I haven't No lies. No qualms. I'm not going to pretend to be something important. I don't know if I will be either. But I want to be. I will no longer be lulled into a false sense of economic complacency. Happiness is not enough for me. I will not be sucked in by nice cars, new shoes. Not by children and not by a future career. My life will be mine.
Sure, those things may happen, and will be nice. But thats not my end goal.
What are we, then, if nothing but others? We are nothing without others.
So fuck the individual. I am not an individual. I am one of many. I am not original. I am just,
I just am. And that is enough for me. I consist of others. That is all I am. A vehicle for others lives, and you too someday will thus become a vehicle for my life, and billions of others. Your children will too. And their children.
Maybe this is what Buddhists mean when they say we are all connected.
No wonder Kaczynski left civilization. It wouldn't let him live! So fuck socialization. The individual is not the enemy, and neither is the group. They are not opposites. It is the individual that comprises the group. I am one of many.
Maybe, we become individuals upon death. We have our own identity, in what we have done. Some more than others.
Conversely, we join others. My experiences mix with you experiences, in the life of your children. When we die, we really do all become one. Our lives are intertwined and mixed with others, in the lives of others still.
Fuck.
My head hurts a bit now.
I don't want to stop writing, this pseudo realization is heavy, but it makes sense.
yeah this all does make sense, but it still leaves me with no meaning.
or at least no morals.
I know why I'll live, just not how yet.
But Why was the big fucking question. I think I have that one out of the way now.