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[mutescars]

Black and blue and alone.
i wish someone could hear my tears crash down on the earth below me.
but no one seemed to notice.
wish i could have never come home.
but my hope has been fucked
ripped apart and mangled
broken and shattered
and smootered with the sick sting of regret.
skin swelling,
eyes welling-
anger taking over me...
hatred cutting the silent atmosphere
fill my lungs with it's sweet brutality
clench my fists and grit my teeth
in disgust in myself
beaten like an animal
left alone to mend myself
left alone to wish i was nothing
all alone to finish myself off.
just leave me alone.