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the most odd thought just came over me. and i haven't thought about it in literally MONTHS.
but me and G just had a small, forced conversation, and i just thought... whoa. i'm talking to the person who was my first love. my first a lot of things. this is the guy who made me feel like the only person in the world who mattered. i gave him my heart, and my virginity, and all that jazz.
and then he turned into an asshole. no, that's unfair, i probably turned into a bitch. or perhaps it was mutual. we both changed, and clashed awfully. he desperately needs to feel right, and individual, and anyone who disagrees is wrong. and i desperately need to have my feelings and opinions respected.
but... he was the world to me. i really thought he would of been my forever - but i guess everyone does.
and then i realised.. friends like matt, and ryan, and ian. they're what men should be like. they're what made me fall out of love with G - the realisation that he was not right for me came from realising that i would be better off with someone else.
it all sounds so straightforward now.
hmmm. off to bed. i'm going to make matt watch 8 mile - mweee! marshall, get in my pants.
but me and G just had a small, forced conversation, and i just thought... whoa. i'm talking to the person who was my first love. my first a lot of things. this is the guy who made me feel like the only person in the world who mattered. i gave him my heart, and my virginity, and all that jazz.
and then he turned into an asshole. no, that's unfair, i probably turned into a bitch. or perhaps it was mutual. we both changed, and clashed awfully. he desperately needs to feel right, and individual, and anyone who disagrees is wrong. and i desperately need to have my feelings and opinions respected.
but... he was the world to me. i really thought he would of been my forever - but i guess everyone does.
and then i realised.. friends like matt, and ryan, and ian. they're what men should be like. they're what made me fall out of love with G - the realisation that he was not right for me came from realising that i would be better off with someone else.
it all sounds so straightforward now.
hmmm. off to bed. i'm going to make matt watch 8 mile - mweee! marshall, get in my pants.