Hole in the world.
I had this trippy as fuck dream I was running nuts in this tower. Maybe I was a robot, I think Mike and Barag were there. I was advancing up floors for some reason but each floor had some different thing going on. Most of them were just reastraunts. At somepoint I witnessed the ending to the Ninja Turtles where they turned splinter back into a human.
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Today I did a few useful things but that was drowned out by the useless things.
I wanted to go home, but there was no one there. I guess today I've been thinking internally alot. Alot on my mind in these final days.
The people here for the most part are scum, but I at least have a few great friends out here anyhow. I wonder heavilly about a different me from another dimension who'd never left this town. Quite frankly though the depression probably woulda killed me by now if I hadn't.
Back in the old days I used to only go to school out of loneliness. I now find myself going to the bar for the exact same reason, and to see the same damn people, but I suppose its a little better since I don't have to go as frequently and my chances of getting laid seem higher. Though fundamentally with that group the same ancient bullshit always unearths itself. Thats why I hate this place, these people just run round in circles forever, and after all these years none of them have changed.
I ran errands on my mother's behalf for the last time. scraping the bottom of the barrel of her request list for things I knew I wouldn't be able to do, and was promptly told that I wasn't capable of doing. My Mother did not take the news well and emptied her bitterness out on me. I hung up on her because I was in no mood to be a scape goat for her.
my TV from Korea arrived today. After 2 months in transit from the day I mailed it to myself. Its pretty surreal getting mail from my past self. I can still remember myself dealing with those damn koreans. They tried to make me not mail it, they said it would cost me alot of money (Which I ignored because koreans think 2 american dollars is alot of money). It cost me a whopping 0.00$ god damn I hate koreans.
I'm not sure if It survived the trip. I didn't even open it. It needs a new wire to work in this country.
For some reason I started Peace walker today. It was good but I realised it would be better with some help from others.
Still, it should be enjoyable. Eventually..
for dinner I made some horrible noodles, they tasted awful and were infested with moth larva which I tried to clean to the best of my ability. Ugh this is what I get for not eating out. Theres nothing to eat in this damn house besides junk food though.
The better part of the day was speant topping off my stockpile, only about 4 items left, but the last couple are giving me a real struggle. Conflict of the system anyhow.
I was looking for something to watch, I got damn lucky that the entire first season of boardwalk empire is On demand. I'm in a good marathon and will try to finish it out by tommorow. Due to time limits.
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Today I did a few useful things but that was drowned out by the useless things.
I wanted to go home, but there was no one there. I guess today I've been thinking internally alot. Alot on my mind in these final days.
The people here for the most part are scum, but I at least have a few great friends out here anyhow. I wonder heavilly about a different me from another dimension who'd never left this town. Quite frankly though the depression probably woulda killed me by now if I hadn't.
Back in the old days I used to only go to school out of loneliness. I now find myself going to the bar for the exact same reason, and to see the same damn people, but I suppose its a little better since I don't have to go as frequently and my chances of getting laid seem higher. Though fundamentally with that group the same ancient bullshit always unearths itself. Thats why I hate this place, these people just run round in circles forever, and after all these years none of them have changed.
I ran errands on my mother's behalf for the last time. scraping the bottom of the barrel of her request list for things I knew I wouldn't be able to do, and was promptly told that I wasn't capable of doing. My Mother did not take the news well and emptied her bitterness out on me. I hung up on her because I was in no mood to be a scape goat for her.
my TV from Korea arrived today. After 2 months in transit from the day I mailed it to myself. Its pretty surreal getting mail from my past self. I can still remember myself dealing with those damn koreans. They tried to make me not mail it, they said it would cost me alot of money (Which I ignored because koreans think 2 american dollars is alot of money). It cost me a whopping 0.00$ god damn I hate koreans.
I'm not sure if It survived the trip. I didn't even open it. It needs a new wire to work in this country.
For some reason I started Peace walker today. It was good but I realised it would be better with some help from others.
Still, it should be enjoyable. Eventually..
for dinner I made some horrible noodles, they tasted awful and were infested with moth larva which I tried to clean to the best of my ability. Ugh this is what I get for not eating out. Theres nothing to eat in this damn house besides junk food though.
The better part of the day was speant topping off my stockpile, only about 4 items left, but the last couple are giving me a real struggle. Conflict of the system anyhow.
I was looking for something to watch, I got damn lucky that the entire first season of boardwalk empire is On demand. I'm in a good marathon and will try to finish it out by tommorow. Due to time limits.