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[mutablefires]

i hardly know where to begin its been so crazy being me for the last 24 hours i'd say...
birthday
school
pearls, hours, sand
call
wait
write, memories, emotions, candles
carrot cake
call
frosting
tv
relaxed
cowboy bebop
goodnight
nothing but something
butterflies
phone call
why? i'm sorry
when? i dont know
how? i cant say
i'm sorry
drunk
scared
sorrow
pain
emotions
confusion
phone call
wes?
fred?
i'm coming to get you?
at 3?
yeah?
no
talk
laugh
sleep
4 hours
awoken
dance
thinking
talking
confusion
emotions
help
end it
now?
i cant stop it
i could if i would but i can no longer control my feelings, emotions, thoughts, loves, passions, resistance, cleared from mind...i cant do it, i tried