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[mustangman99]

everybody has kind of deserted live journal, and gone to myspace. so have i, but i still stay true to lj lol. so i just got home from melissas party, and it may have not really looked like it but i had a pretty good time. it was really relaxing at times, and i havent seen emily in a really long time so we had an out of control pillow fight. i think i ended up eating like about 8 kit kat bars (halloween edition of course). i scared melissa pretty bad when we were watching saw, so she definately punched me as hard as she could like 5 times, but it was for sure worth it b/c her reaction was great. when i was there relaxing though; i sat back and just thought about how it would be if we were together. i miss it soooooo much, but i dont like telling her b/c it makes her feel guilty and she shouldn't at all. the only thing she is guilty of is being so pretty :). but she still made me tell her so w/e. I know things have happened to her in the past though to make her not trust guys in general, but i dont think that is a good reason to not trust me b/c i dont think i have done anything that is worth saying that i am untrustworthy. but i am not her so idk, but i dont think i have ever wanted to kiss somebody and tell them i loved them so much as bad as i did tonight. i will still hold back but i think one day the dam is going to break if u know what i mean lol.

basically i really want melissa back, somebody help me feel better
-Alex-