Jun 25, 2004 22:24
Anthony- I know I lost you. I want to be your friend, I try to be your friend. But how is that possible when you can't get it through your head, that I KNOW I lost you? I told everyone the truth about us... about how I broke up with you first, then we got back together, and for who knows what the real reason is, you broke up with me. I know you are with Melissa.. I am fine with that. I am glad that you are happy with her. I just want for you to be happy. I am just upset with how things were handled between the two of us. I am upset at how, you just won't talk to me, so I can explain myself to you... I mean this is the only way that I can explain myself, through my journal or my text messages, and either of which, I know you most likely won't read.. yet I am doing it anyways. I am sorry that I hurt you that badly or whatever it is that I did to you, and I am sorry that I was somewhat of a pain, with calling you all the time. I am sorry I called you a jack ass. But you won't listen to me. AND I NEVER tried to get anyone to hate you(from K-mart)!
Melissa- I know I maybe psycho sometimes, but if someone, anyone, would just listen to me, you would know that I am not a pshchotic bitch or anything like that. I am happy that you are with Anthony, he is a good guy. I have nothing against you, I can't have anything against a person, I don't even know! I mean its just common sense, you just can't hate a person and not know them at the same time, it just doesn't work.
Jennifer- Where do I begin? First off, I am not mad at you. I am just upset as how things were handled... and how I was never going to be informed of Melissa and Anthony. I know if I were informed of them to though, I wouldn't have acted the way I did. I would have congradulated them... or whatever. But the reason why I am so upset with you, is because I appoligized to you, for more then one thing not too long ago, and I didn't even get the same thing in return. Yet I went a long with it and was your "friend". I appoligized to you for not talking to you for the longest time about the whole car accident thing, and I just let things be. I never got anything in return. It hurt. And then when I had to find out on my own about Melissa and Anthony, and the fact that you knew, and didn't tell me, it just hurt 50 times worse...
Overall, I don't want to be mad at anyone, and I don't want anyone to be mad at me. I just want to be friends, or at least ways not have any grudges held onto one and another. I appoligize for everything that I have done, I just wish you all could forgive me.