So... It's been a while, huh?
Wow, welcome back to the land of the living.
I'm home for the summer, where internet access is spotty at best and cell phones really are glorified paperweights. Also back at the garden centre, after having a job with Parks Canada that was summarily eliminated without notice. Federal government, if you didn't already throw money at me, I'd hate you. Just sayin'.
Not much is actually new. I got a kickass thesis project on the go for next year working on B cell development and leukemia with a prof in developmental immunology. I have two new roommates -- no eco-hippie roomie anymore which is sort of a mixed-emotions thing, but the two new ones are old friends who are incapable of quiet and sobriety so it should be an interesting year. Grad school is starting to terrify me immensely, and if this is cold feet then I'm never getting even close to getting married because I'll run like a doped-up Olympic sprinter.
I'm dating this guy from home now, although I'm not really sure what exactly 'dating' entails. He's very sweet and closer in age than the last guy (not saying much -- 10 years was a bit of a gap), and he has a 2 year old daughter. Still trying to work out whether or not I'm ready to be not-single with all the actual personal restraint that requires. I've cleaned up my life and my problems some from the last time I tried this though, so I live in perpetual hope.
I've been writing a bit, Bones and Supernatural/CWRPS. I don't think I could ever write Bones RPS after the DB cheating thing, though -- the presence of children seems to be my line in the sand; somewhat arbitrary that I rank children unable to access the internet let alone read what's out there higher than marriage vows, but that's about all you get from my logic... It's a little scary to be writing again, and nothing is even close to being cleaned up enough for human consumption, but practice makes perfect, right?
And in the last little tidbit, I think I'm going to try to go to Jamie's grave on Saturday night -- honestly, writing this down is probably the only way I'll ever get there. Sort of an enforced thinking, since it's irretrievably written on the interwebs as soon as I hit post. I haven't been back since last summer, about a year ago. I guess I just want to talk out loud to him, even though the feet-nailed-to-the-ground atheist in me is 100% aware I'm actually talking to the Rice Lake/Indian River delta and a little chunk of black granite. But I've managed to completely cut the drugs and over-drinking out of my life, I'm somewhat successful in school and I feel like I'm the closest to being back on track that I've ever been, and it would be nice to be able to tell the one person who happily listened at four in the morning. The other best friend is wrapped up in his new girlfriend too far to be much of a sounding board -- she apparently doesn't trust female best friends and it's more than a little difficult to deal with. Saturday is the big village dance to celebrate Canada Day, so afterwards I think the other best friend and I are going to go and just sit for a while, the two of us. It's a nice thought, anyways.
Anyways, that is about the sum extent of the last little while. What's new with y'all?
I'm home for the summer, where internet access is spotty at best and cell phones really are glorified paperweights. Also back at the garden centre, after having a job with Parks Canada that was summarily eliminated without notice. Federal government, if you didn't already throw money at me, I'd hate you. Just sayin'.
Not much is actually new. I got a kickass thesis project on the go for next year working on B cell development and leukemia with a prof in developmental immunology. I have two new roommates -- no eco-hippie roomie anymore which is sort of a mixed-emotions thing, but the two new ones are old friends who are incapable of quiet and sobriety so it should be an interesting year. Grad school is starting to terrify me immensely, and if this is cold feet then I'm never getting even close to getting married because I'll run like a doped-up Olympic sprinter.
I'm dating this guy from home now, although I'm not really sure what exactly 'dating' entails. He's very sweet and closer in age than the last guy (not saying much -- 10 years was a bit of a gap), and he has a 2 year old daughter. Still trying to work out whether or not I'm ready to be not-single with all the actual personal restraint that requires. I've cleaned up my life and my problems some from the last time I tried this though, so I live in perpetual hope.
I've been writing a bit, Bones and Supernatural/CWRPS. I don't think I could ever write Bones RPS after the DB cheating thing, though -- the presence of children seems to be my line in the sand; somewhat arbitrary that I rank children unable to access the internet let alone read what's out there higher than marriage vows, but that's about all you get from my logic... It's a little scary to be writing again, and nothing is even close to being cleaned up enough for human consumption, but practice makes perfect, right?
And in the last little tidbit, I think I'm going to try to go to Jamie's grave on Saturday night -- honestly, writing this down is probably the only way I'll ever get there. Sort of an enforced thinking, since it's irretrievably written on the interwebs as soon as I hit post. I haven't been back since last summer, about a year ago. I guess I just want to talk out loud to him, even though the feet-nailed-to-the-ground atheist in me is 100% aware I'm actually talking to the Rice Lake/Indian River delta and a little chunk of black granite. But I've managed to completely cut the drugs and over-drinking out of my life, I'm somewhat successful in school and I feel like I'm the closest to being back on track that I've ever been, and it would be nice to be able to tell the one person who happily listened at four in the morning. The other best friend is wrapped up in his new girlfriend too far to be much of a sounding board -- she apparently doesn't trust female best friends and it's more than a little difficult to deal with. Saturday is the big village dance to celebrate Canada Day, so afterwards I think the other best friend and I are going to go and just sit for a while, the two of us. It's a nice thought, anyways.
Anyways, that is about the sum extent of the last little while. What's new with y'all?