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I really don't like it when I set high expectations/hopes for something, and then they are not met. At all.
It was literally one of those instances where he was so close, yet so far. I really wanted something- anything to happen, but of course, it didn't. I don't even know why I'm bothering. He's not going to like me. I think I can tell already that he doesn't, and that really sucks alot. Like...you don't even know. *sigh* What's worse is I think he's almost exactly my type from what I can tell of him. I don't like this, guys. I really don't. It makes me really sad. :(
I don't feel like doing anything tomorrow. Like, I don't even want to wake up. And I don't want to go to school on Monday, because it's going to suck ass. I don't feel like being at my house right now at all. I just want to be hanging out at someone else's house, doing absolutely nothing. I don't care! I just don't want to be here, I'm sick of it. I don't feel like going to bed, but what else is there to do?! I'm supposed to go to church tomorrow with my parents at 11, but I don't even feel like doing that. Mr. Anderson is going to bug me on Monday to go to Bible Study and I don't want to do that either. I don't really get anything out of it anymore it seems like. I don't like studying the Old Testament at all. It's not interesting to me, and it feels so redundant. Ugh.
I don't even know what I'm doing with myself, anymore. I don't like who I'm becoming very much. I've become incredibly lazy and unfocused, and apathetic towards things that I need to care about. I don't know why everything feels like its falling apart. I don't want it to. I need something to go right for me for a change. Like, not just somewhat okay, or whatever. Like...I really need something that will make me happy for an extended period of time, and not just a few minutes/hours. *deep sigh*
I feel like a small wide-eyed child looking up at her mom after accidently breaking something, saying, "Can you fix it?"
It was literally one of those instances where he was so close, yet so far. I really wanted something- anything to happen, but of course, it didn't. I don't even know why I'm bothering. He's not going to like me. I think I can tell already that he doesn't, and that really sucks alot. Like...you don't even know. *sigh* What's worse is I think he's almost exactly my type from what I can tell of him. I don't like this, guys. I really don't. It makes me really sad. :(
I don't feel like doing anything tomorrow. Like, I don't even want to wake up. And I don't want to go to school on Monday, because it's going to suck ass. I don't feel like being at my house right now at all. I just want to be hanging out at someone else's house, doing absolutely nothing. I don't care! I just don't want to be here, I'm sick of it. I don't feel like going to bed, but what else is there to do?! I'm supposed to go to church tomorrow with my parents at 11, but I don't even feel like doing that. Mr. Anderson is going to bug me on Monday to go to Bible Study and I don't want to do that either. I don't really get anything out of it anymore it seems like. I don't like studying the Old Testament at all. It's not interesting to me, and it feels so redundant. Ugh.
I don't even know what I'm doing with myself, anymore. I don't like who I'm becoming very much. I've become incredibly lazy and unfocused, and apathetic towards things that I need to care about. I don't know why everything feels like its falling apart. I don't want it to. I need something to go right for me for a change. Like, not just somewhat okay, or whatever. Like...I really need something that will make me happy for an extended period of time, and not just a few minutes/hours. *deep sigh*
I feel like a small wide-eyed child looking up at her mom after accidently breaking something, saying, "Can you fix it?"