Today really sucked.
Don't you love how I basically only update with random pointlessness, or when I'm all sad or mad or whatever? Yea I find that pretty cool too.
So yea. As I said, today definitely sucked a whole lot.
We're start with last night.
So yesterday started out pretty good I guess...I got up on time and got to Student Council on time which was nice. I don't remember much else until I got home from school...at some point I called Tom to see if he had been called by Karrina or Bmast yet (they were his ride to the benefit concert) and he hadn't, so i got a hold of karrina and she said they were still at ryans, and then later i talked to tiffany and she needed me to let matt know that they needed to get to frankenmuth as soon as they could, so i did that, and then called tom again to see if they had called him cuz matt had said they were leaving in about 10 minutes, they hadnt and yeaaa....so i went over to the BPAC around 610ish because tiff had said doors were at 6, but they were still doing sound check so we were just kind of congregating in the lobby and whatnot, hoping to God that Arizing would make it on time (i was feeling pessimistic and was thinking the absolute worst which made things even worse that night turns out) so after awhile John Barrett showed up and i didnt recognize him at first...like, i wasnt sure if it was him or not, but it was and he gave me a big hug and i was excited. then they started letting people in and so we got our seats and i was really stressing out because i didnt know if tom was coming or not, i didnt know who i wanted/should hang out with (there were like 7 different groups of people that i wanted to hang out with) and i was beginning to get some premonitions about the entire night. so yea, rather than sitting to watch Trigger, i just decided to go and stand back by John and his friends, and then they went and did something or something, so i went and sat by mike for a bit, and then tiff asked me to find out where matt was so i went out in the lobby to call him (this was towards the end of Trigger's set) and when i got ahold of him he said they were about 10 mins away so that was good. so i went back in and i stood by John and them and then i needed to go wait for karrina and brandon so i went and did that...they all showed up a few mins before the avery set went on, so yea, i said hey to them and all that jazz and then me and karrina went to go sit by matt who was sitting behind my parents kind of and yeaa...we watched the avery set for awhile and then michelle said that tom called me on her phone so i went outside to call him back and he said that his phone hadnt been ringing when people called or telling him if he had missed calls so he was really mad and i was really sad that he wasnt there but yea...i felt really bad. but yea...there really wasnt anything i could do, so i just went back inside and talked to a few people and yea...then me and karrina went to find matt some water and none of the pop machines worked, but jeff's dad had an unopened bottle and so he gave that to us which was really awesome of him....so we gave that to him and then went back out into the house and yea...i sat up front cuz i wanted to be up at the stage for arizing....and i was just in a terrible mood. i felt so down and i was not having fun at all, and some people that were standing there with me werent making me feel any better at all, so i just sat down in one of the seats and put my feet on the wall because i was about ready to cry. after a few mins of standing there, mike came and sat next to me for a few mins before arizing came on and i stood up at the stage...so yea. as soon as they started playing my attention was like immediately fixed on them, and i started feeling a little better...because quite honestly, whenever i watch them play, i get this awesome sense of pride in matt, and i just know how much i really love him. during the first song (terror) tiff came and stood by me which was cool...then they played OSL and i think thats when John ended up standing behind me a little ways and then they played a song i had not heard before called No Time Left...I enjoyed it. They then played Peace and I got REALLY sad all of a sudden because it made me think of someone close to me (literally and figuratively) and im not even sure why, but it made me miss him even more. after peace i think is when matt gave his shout out to tiffany and then to me, lol, which totally made me blush, lol, but i felt kinda special, lol...and then i think they played right now, but it seemed like there was another song before that....but i cant think of what it would be...anyways, at the beginning of Right Now i decided i wanted to turn around and sing it to John, lol, so for the "It shouldn't be a mystery..How you've become the world to me, yea, and nothing can take that away...from me" i turned around and sang it to him, haha. i think he caught my drift, lol...and then after that was Better Off Without and during that song John grabbed my arm and pulled me away from tiff right while i was saying something to her, lol, and hes like MAKE THEM PLAY 540!!! YOU'RE HIS SISTER HE'LL LISTEN TO YOU! DO IT!!!! lol, and so i was going to try to signal it to matt after better off without..but then dion started ripping off his guitar stringss...soo yeaa...lol, they were done. blah blah blah they cleaned up and stuff, and i went up on stage with john to give him his present and cookies and then i gave danger lyle his cookies and he like fell in love, lol....and yea, lots of hanging out happened, lots of hugs were exchanged (the best of which were between me and john, lol), pictures were taken, cookies were exchanged and eaten, and then i came home around 1030. then dan gave us presents from Hawaii..he got me this really pretty necklace with moons made of Mother of Pearl, and then little black stars between each moon, and then he let me have one of the Lais that he got....so yea, then i got to bed around 11, 1130 or so...and i got up at about 710 which began my sucky day. (yea, all of that was just the prelude to my sucky day.)
alright. so i got up and i got dressed and everything and went to school feeling horrible. i woke up feeling sick (stuffy nose, scratchy throat, etc.) and i really did not want to go to school. but yea i had to, so i went and i got myself a cookie and an orange juice for breakfast, and i went and sat by sarah and paige, and amanda sat by me, but then like 2 seconds later they got up and left so i was just kind of sitting there by myself for a few minutes which was cool...and then evan came and sat by me and started talking to me and i was like....yeaa....but then tiff walked by so i started talking to her about last night and whatever...and then the bell rang which sucked. anyways, blah blah blah, school was really lame and nothing seemed to go very well and yea i was not very happy at all. so yea i came home and went online, and i checked my myspace and i got THE best comment in the world from John Barrett. for like the first and only time today (and in awhile to be honest) i felt really loved. and seriously, he totally made my day...i really love that kid, and i care about him alot, and im glad that he really knows that now. ....then things werent so exciting for awhile so i fixed my itunes/ipod so now my ipod gets updated so thats good...i finally have my "Lightness" by Death Cab on there. yeaa...so i hung out in my room for awhile, then got back on and mike asked if i still wanted to hang out or whatever so i said yea....so he said hed call me when he was done eating or whatever, so yea...i went upstairs a lil bit later to start getting ready and then he called, lol, so he said hed be here in like 15 mins so yea...i got ready in that amount of time i guess. soo he picked me up, and he wanted to talk so i was like ok and yea...the conversation was definitely the opposite of what i was expecting so that was...cool...so yea. that kinda reinforced my mood for the night basically, though there were some good times. the fact that Phil walked all around down town in a gorilla suit was pretty awesome. after we walked downtown and whatever, we went to the lodge to do karoke and it was a good time. steve and mike were pretty damn hilarious i must say. however, the night ended on a sour note when steve dislocated his shoulder so we had to call it a night. before that happened though, steve and mike had some pretty sweet moves on the dance floor, and they definitely looked pretty hot slow dancing together to Enya's "Only time"...and of course, their beautiful rendition of "Truly Madly Deeply" or whatever it's called by Savage Garden, lol. that was seriously one of the funniest things ive ever seen. and then we eventually got home after waiting in the lobby for either caitlin and lauren to pick us up with mikes van, or phil keller to get us after dropping steve off....it took awhile, but caitlin and lauren got there and then mike took me home because it was 1030 and i was supposed to be home at 1030...so yea. about 15 minutes after i got home (at like 1035ish) my dad and teri come home and teri starts bitching about everything and about how she doesnt want to go to bed yet, and they dont have anything else to do but watch tv and they have only one tv they can watch and its not fair that i want to watch my show for once....so guess who won that one. yea. the one fucking night i just want to sit and chill out on the couch alone...house to myself...just relaxing and thinking about shit and watching my shows on The-N...teri has to throw a fucking fit over nothing.
so yea. im still really in a not happy mood. ive been close to crying a couple times to tell you the truth, but oh well. whatever.
fuck age, and fuck guys. seriously.
...sorry it was so long, but you probly didnt read the whole thing anyways. i just needed to vent kind of........
So yea. As I said, today definitely sucked a whole lot.
We're start with last night.
So yesterday started out pretty good I guess...I got up on time and got to Student Council on time which was nice. I don't remember much else until I got home from school...at some point I called Tom to see if he had been called by Karrina or Bmast yet (they were his ride to the benefit concert) and he hadn't, so i got a hold of karrina and she said they were still at ryans, and then later i talked to tiffany and she needed me to let matt know that they needed to get to frankenmuth as soon as they could, so i did that, and then called tom again to see if they had called him cuz matt had said they were leaving in about 10 minutes, they hadnt and yeaaa....so i went over to the BPAC around 610ish because tiff had said doors were at 6, but they were still doing sound check so we were just kind of congregating in the lobby and whatnot, hoping to God that Arizing would make it on time (i was feeling pessimistic and was thinking the absolute worst which made things even worse that night turns out) so after awhile John Barrett showed up and i didnt recognize him at first...like, i wasnt sure if it was him or not, but it was and he gave me a big hug and i was excited. then they started letting people in and so we got our seats and i was really stressing out because i didnt know if tom was coming or not, i didnt know who i wanted/should hang out with (there were like 7 different groups of people that i wanted to hang out with) and i was beginning to get some premonitions about the entire night. so yea, rather than sitting to watch Trigger, i just decided to go and stand back by John and his friends, and then they went and did something or something, so i went and sat by mike for a bit, and then tiff asked me to find out where matt was so i went out in the lobby to call him (this was towards the end of Trigger's set) and when i got ahold of him he said they were about 10 mins away so that was good. so i went back in and i stood by John and them and then i needed to go wait for karrina and brandon so i went and did that...they all showed up a few mins before the avery set went on, so yea, i said hey to them and all that jazz and then me and karrina went to go sit by matt who was sitting behind my parents kind of and yeaa...we watched the avery set for awhile and then michelle said that tom called me on her phone so i went outside to call him back and he said that his phone hadnt been ringing when people called or telling him if he had missed calls so he was really mad and i was really sad that he wasnt there but yea...i felt really bad. but yea...there really wasnt anything i could do, so i just went back inside and talked to a few people and yea...then me and karrina went to find matt some water and none of the pop machines worked, but jeff's dad had an unopened bottle and so he gave that to us which was really awesome of him....so we gave that to him and then went back out into the house and yea...i sat up front cuz i wanted to be up at the stage for arizing....and i was just in a terrible mood. i felt so down and i was not having fun at all, and some people that were standing there with me werent making me feel any better at all, so i just sat down in one of the seats and put my feet on the wall because i was about ready to cry. after a few mins of standing there, mike came and sat next to me for a few mins before arizing came on and i stood up at the stage...so yea. as soon as they started playing my attention was like immediately fixed on them, and i started feeling a little better...because quite honestly, whenever i watch them play, i get this awesome sense of pride in matt, and i just know how much i really love him. during the first song (terror) tiff came and stood by me which was cool...then they played OSL and i think thats when John ended up standing behind me a little ways and then they played a song i had not heard before called No Time Left...I enjoyed it. They then played Peace and I got REALLY sad all of a sudden because it made me think of someone close to me (literally and figuratively) and im not even sure why, but it made me miss him even more. after peace i think is when matt gave his shout out to tiffany and then to me, lol, which totally made me blush, lol, but i felt kinda special, lol...and then i think they played right now, but it seemed like there was another song before that....but i cant think of what it would be...anyways, at the beginning of Right Now i decided i wanted to turn around and sing it to John, lol, so for the "It shouldn't be a mystery..How you've become the world to me, yea, and nothing can take that away...from me" i turned around and sang it to him, haha. i think he caught my drift, lol...and then after that was Better Off Without and during that song John grabbed my arm and pulled me away from tiff right while i was saying something to her, lol, and hes like MAKE THEM PLAY 540!!! YOU'RE HIS SISTER HE'LL LISTEN TO YOU! DO IT!!!! lol, and so i was going to try to signal it to matt after better off without..but then dion started ripping off his guitar stringss...soo yeaa...lol, they were done. blah blah blah they cleaned up and stuff, and i went up on stage with john to give him his present and cookies and then i gave danger lyle his cookies and he like fell in love, lol....and yea, lots of hanging out happened, lots of hugs were exchanged (the best of which were between me and john, lol), pictures were taken, cookies were exchanged and eaten, and then i came home around 1030. then dan gave us presents from Hawaii..he got me this really pretty necklace with moons made of Mother of Pearl, and then little black stars between each moon, and then he let me have one of the Lais that he got....so yea, then i got to bed around 11, 1130 or so...and i got up at about 710 which began my sucky day. (yea, all of that was just the prelude to my sucky day.)
alright. so i got up and i got dressed and everything and went to school feeling horrible. i woke up feeling sick (stuffy nose, scratchy throat, etc.) and i really did not want to go to school. but yea i had to, so i went and i got myself a cookie and an orange juice for breakfast, and i went and sat by sarah and paige, and amanda sat by me, but then like 2 seconds later they got up and left so i was just kind of sitting there by myself for a few minutes which was cool...and then evan came and sat by me and started talking to me and i was like....yeaa....but then tiff walked by so i started talking to her about last night and whatever...and then the bell rang which sucked. anyways, blah blah blah, school was really lame and nothing seemed to go very well and yea i was not very happy at all. so yea i came home and went online, and i checked my myspace and i got THE best comment in the world from John Barrett. for like the first and only time today (and in awhile to be honest) i felt really loved. and seriously, he totally made my day...i really love that kid, and i care about him alot, and im glad that he really knows that now. ....then things werent so exciting for awhile so i fixed my itunes/ipod so now my ipod gets updated so thats good...i finally have my "Lightness" by Death Cab on there. yeaa...so i hung out in my room for awhile, then got back on and mike asked if i still wanted to hang out or whatever so i said yea....so he said hed call me when he was done eating or whatever, so yea...i went upstairs a lil bit later to start getting ready and then he called, lol, so he said hed be here in like 15 mins so yea...i got ready in that amount of time i guess. soo he picked me up, and he wanted to talk so i was like ok and yea...the conversation was definitely the opposite of what i was expecting so that was...cool...so yea. that kinda reinforced my mood for the night basically, though there were some good times. the fact that Phil walked all around down town in a gorilla suit was pretty awesome. after we walked downtown and whatever, we went to the lodge to do karoke and it was a good time. steve and mike were pretty damn hilarious i must say. however, the night ended on a sour note when steve dislocated his shoulder so we had to call it a night. before that happened though, steve and mike had some pretty sweet moves on the dance floor, and they definitely looked pretty hot slow dancing together to Enya's "Only time"...and of course, their beautiful rendition of "Truly Madly Deeply" or whatever it's called by Savage Garden, lol. that was seriously one of the funniest things ive ever seen. and then we eventually got home after waiting in the lobby for either caitlin and lauren to pick us up with mikes van, or phil keller to get us after dropping steve off....it took awhile, but caitlin and lauren got there and then mike took me home because it was 1030 and i was supposed to be home at 1030...so yea. about 15 minutes after i got home (at like 1035ish) my dad and teri come home and teri starts bitching about everything and about how she doesnt want to go to bed yet, and they dont have anything else to do but watch tv and they have only one tv they can watch and its not fair that i want to watch my show for once....so guess who won that one. yea. the one fucking night i just want to sit and chill out on the couch alone...house to myself...just relaxing and thinking about shit and watching my shows on The-N...teri has to throw a fucking fit over nothing.
so yea. im still really in a not happy mood. ive been close to crying a couple times to tell you the truth, but oh well. whatever.
fuck age, and fuck guys. seriously.
...sorry it was so long, but you probly didnt read the whole thing anyways. i just needed to vent kind of........