happy new year? maybe...probly not. ::slanty face::
so last night after i got to jessica's with kelsey, i had a lot of fun. i was hyper, happy, and having a ton of fun.
the night went by kind of fast though, and before i knew it, it was 6 am and i was finally about to go to sleep. i then woke up at like noon or 1230 or some crazy shit like that.
then kelseys dad came and picked us up at about 145 or something, and i came home.
and that was the end of my good mood basically.
id like to say that i REALLY don't like that girl. shes rude, mean, and she thinks shes so amazing and shes so much better than i am. well guess what dear, you're not.
i seriously want to beat her face in, just for existing.
its people like her that piss me off so much.
just thought id say that.
this really isnt easy for me. and though i know its not intentional at all, you're not making it any easier for me.
i dont want to be all emo and stupid and try to make you feel bad--thats not what im trying to do AT ALL. i dont know if that annoyed you or made you mad, or made you think less of me or anything...but when we were talking yesterday i was kind of handling it the wrong way and not saying the things i wanted to say in the right way. i dont know how to tell you how i feel straight out. i dont want to be mad at you, and im not mad really...but i am sad over you. and ive been saying this alot lately, but its the only way i know how to really describe it: This really sucks. Alot.
i dont know. i really dont.
i kind of feel like leaving here and just going somewhere else (i dont know where at all) and just crying. like...yea, i know you guys love me and whatever and ive got a few people thatll listen to me and give me advice and everything....but its kind of hard to have people listen to me when i dont know what to say.
i feel like a mess.
No goodbyes
Only highway lines
And sun on her cheeks
And the hope
that she'll find herself
In all that she seeks.
Theres no need to fight it
Just bite your tongue,
swallow your pride and move on.
Theres no need to fight it
Just bite your tongue,
swallow your pride and move on.
Stand tall
Know that this isn't your fault.
Stand tall
Know that this isn't your fault.
Stand tall
Know that this isn't your fault.
the night went by kind of fast though, and before i knew it, it was 6 am and i was finally about to go to sleep. i then woke up at like noon or 1230 or some crazy shit like that.
then kelseys dad came and picked us up at about 145 or something, and i came home.
and that was the end of my good mood basically.
id like to say that i REALLY don't like that girl. shes rude, mean, and she thinks shes so amazing and shes so much better than i am. well guess what dear, you're not.
i seriously want to beat her face in, just for existing.
its people like her that piss me off so much.
just thought id say that.
this really isnt easy for me. and though i know its not intentional at all, you're not making it any easier for me.
i dont want to be all emo and stupid and try to make you feel bad--thats not what im trying to do AT ALL. i dont know if that annoyed you or made you mad, or made you think less of me or anything...but when we were talking yesterday i was kind of handling it the wrong way and not saying the things i wanted to say in the right way. i dont know how to tell you how i feel straight out. i dont want to be mad at you, and im not mad really...but i am sad over you. and ive been saying this alot lately, but its the only way i know how to really describe it: This really sucks. Alot.
i dont know. i really dont.
i kind of feel like leaving here and just going somewhere else (i dont know where at all) and just crying. like...yea, i know you guys love me and whatever and ive got a few people thatll listen to me and give me advice and everything....but its kind of hard to have people listen to me when i dont know what to say.
i feel like a mess.
No goodbyes
Only highway lines
And sun on her cheeks
And the hope
that she'll find herself
In all that she seeks.
Theres no need to fight it
Just bite your tongue,
swallow your pride and move on.
Theres no need to fight it
Just bite your tongue,
swallow your pride and move on.
Stand tall
Know that this isn't your fault.
Stand tall
Know that this isn't your fault.
Stand tall
Know that this isn't your fault.