update en ma vie
It's been pretty long since i've actually posted something of substance, pretty strange this whole LJ thing. I've had for less than a year, at times i'll go close to a month w/o updating and other times i'll update like 4 times a week .... pretty strange. I guess I'm some what self-conscious of who my audience is, i think sometimes i'm kinda worried of the content of my posts and the intentions behind them, but oh wells, here we go....
I've been pretty down for the past couple of months, i mean really down. I'm not quite sure what the main cause of it all was but it was affecting my entire life including my deen, but alhamdulillah i've been somewhat improving over these past few weeks, especially in the past few days, i just hope I can continue to improve.
I just got back from 'isha jammat. I prayed next to a really old guy. He has grandkids, so i'm guessing he's over 60 or 70. As he was going into sujjud, i remembered somewhere reading about how Merciful God is to old people, especially those who are pious and have been throughout their lives. I also noticed the simplicity of his dress, his long beard and his quiet manners. And i thought, wow, God definetely gave this man some sort of blessed station. Here he is in his old age, leading a very simple life, following the best he can of the Sunnah and engaging in the worship of his Creator to whom he'll soon be returning, and i coudln't help but think just that, that he will return to God very soon, that he soon will pass away from this dunya and be faced with the Reality from which he came from. And i then couldn't help but think that I too will be facing this same passage and there is no guarantee that the old man will go through his before I go through mine. Think about it, i'm pretty much nearing the apex of my life, but still i can be returned back to God at any moment. As can anyone. So many of my friends and fellow graduates are making so many elaborate plans, getting ready for med school, looking for jobs, interviewing, going off to other lands and states, but nothing guarantees that they'll make it there. I mean don't get me wrong, i'm not being nihilistic and i fully support each and every one of their plans but i'm just amazed at the ultimate power and the final word that God has.
hmmm glad to have gotten that off my chest and out of my head. I still got tons of work to do. GOt two projects to do and three summer courses to be done. insha Allah they will all pass, all of this will eventually......
well, aSalamu 'alaikoom
I've been pretty down for the past couple of months, i mean really down. I'm not quite sure what the main cause of it all was but it was affecting my entire life including my deen, but alhamdulillah i've been somewhat improving over these past few weeks, especially in the past few days, i just hope I can continue to improve.
I just got back from 'isha jammat. I prayed next to a really old guy. He has grandkids, so i'm guessing he's over 60 or 70. As he was going into sujjud, i remembered somewhere reading about how Merciful God is to old people, especially those who are pious and have been throughout their lives. I also noticed the simplicity of his dress, his long beard and his quiet manners. And i thought, wow, God definetely gave this man some sort of blessed station. Here he is in his old age, leading a very simple life, following the best he can of the Sunnah and engaging in the worship of his Creator to whom he'll soon be returning, and i coudln't help but think just that, that he will return to God very soon, that he soon will pass away from this dunya and be faced with the Reality from which he came from. And i then couldn't help but think that I too will be facing this same passage and there is no guarantee that the old man will go through his before I go through mine. Think about it, i'm pretty much nearing the apex of my life, but still i can be returned back to God at any moment. As can anyone. So many of my friends and fellow graduates are making so many elaborate plans, getting ready for med school, looking for jobs, interviewing, going off to other lands and states, but nothing guarantees that they'll make it there. I mean don't get me wrong, i'm not being nihilistic and i fully support each and every one of their plans but i'm just amazed at the ultimate power and the final word that God has.
hmmm glad to have gotten that off my chest and out of my head. I still got tons of work to do. GOt two projects to do and three summer courses to be done. insha Allah they will all pass, all of this will eventually......
well, aSalamu 'alaikoom