#311: rain check
WARNING: this is going to be a ranting post.
WHY MUST SHE ALWAYS SAY EVERYTHING BAD AGAINST ME?? OK, MAYBE I MIGHT BE OVER-SENSITIVE OR SOMETHING BUT SERIOUSLY, WHEN SHE GETS AN IDEA INTO HER HEAD, SHE WON"T LET GO OF IT AND KEEP ON GOING ABOUT IT EVEN THOUGH ITS IS HIGHLY ILLOGICAL AND UNREASONABLE. I WILL LISTEN TO HER. ITS NOT AS IF I DON'T OBEY HER. IN THE END, I ALWAYS END UP DOING WHAT SHE SAYS ANYWAY. BUT WHY KEEP HARPING OVER SOMETHING WHEN ITS ALREADY SETTLED? WE'VE DECIDED, SAY OK, AND MOVE ON! GOSH. ITS JUST SO IMMATURED TO KEEP ON TALKING AND TALKING ABOUT THE WHOLE THING. JUST DROP THE MATTER. AND THIS IS NOT THE FIRST TIME.
-breathes- i hate it when my family quarrels. its always the same thing. everyone is yelling/shouting at the top of their voices. really, if you just sit there quietly and listen to all that they say, you find it highly amusing because it REALLY doesn't make any sense at all. but when i do join in the yelling competition (which i'm really not happy to do, but cannot help myself), my stress level shoots right up ceiling level. i hate it. i keep promising myself i will stop argueing with them and just listen to what they say. but HONESTLY its SO crazy and illogical that i HAVE to say something. OHWELL.
today is bad or good and i don't know what to do and who to talk to.
God, please send someone.
-cries-