#521: Carrying On
I need to move on. Something is shackled around my ankles and dragging me backwards. I don't know why I've been feeling like this, but I just have. Its silly. Maybe its PMT and stress from University all lumped together. Or maybe... I don't know. (And I should stop saying I don't know too!) I should have a better use of my time! Some stuff, for an update:
+ Aching like crazy everywhere from the 3 hour dance-tryouts for the UCL Dance Society. (Don't laugh! I wanted to try something different). Really want to learn dance and I'm upset that I wasn't allowed to do ballet when I was younger :( but I'm rubbish at dance and I think I'm too old to learn.
+ Nick's birthday is coming soon (Wed!) and I haven't baked his chocolate fudge birthday cake yet! :( But I did bake some vanilla cupcakes and felt better immediately. (Baking is definitely my therapy)
+ Coffee and Cake with Philly today and a Very Long Chat! (Seriously, at the rate I'm going, definitely gonna put on weight instead of lose it! But going to start gymming for about 3 times a week, from tomorrow onwards so hopefully I'll get fitter!)
+ Talking about fitness, my levels of fitness SUCKS! Just walking to school and I'm panting embarrassingly. :( Blaming the heels that I wore and the cold weather but definitely know that I'm not fit anymore! :(
+ Actually feeling quite down but trying to smile to get through this, whatever this is.
+ Aching like crazy everywhere from the 3 hour dance-tryouts for the UCL Dance Society. (Don't laugh! I wanted to try something different). Really want to learn dance and I'm upset that I wasn't allowed to do ballet when I was younger :( but I'm rubbish at dance and I think I'm too old to learn.
+ Nick's birthday is coming soon (Wed!) and I haven't baked his chocolate fudge birthday cake yet! :( But I did bake some vanilla cupcakes and felt better immediately. (Baking is definitely my therapy)
+ Coffee and Cake with Philly today and a Very Long Chat! (Seriously, at the rate I'm going, definitely gonna put on weight instead of lose it! But going to start gymming for about 3 times a week, from tomorrow onwards so hopefully I'll get fitter!)
+ Talking about fitness, my levels of fitness SUCKS! Just walking to school and I'm panting embarrassingly. :( Blaming the heels that I wore and the cold weather but definitely know that I'm not fit anymore! :(
+ Actually feeling quite down but trying to smile to get through this, whatever this is.