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I haven't updated this thing all year.
I don't really have much to say. So far, 2010 has been no better than 2009--in fact, I'd say it's been considerably worse.
I am nearing a year of unemployment, I still hate where I live, Jenny and I still have issues, my depression, anxiety, and PMDD are basically out of control, I had to have 2 root canals which was both painful and expensive, and my car was totaled last month.
The only bright spot in all of this has come in the form of a completely new--and completely unexpected--relationship. With a man named Corey.
He's 22, a student teacher, and basically one of the most amazing people I've ever met. Our meeting was kind of a fluke--we vaguely met last October at Homecoming, but he was engaged to one of my "sisters." We hadn't talked since then, and then his fiance broke up with him in August. I ran into him at WalMart (both of us were with mutual friends) the night it happened, and told him that I'd listen if he needed someone to talk to. To my surprise, he took me up on that offer, and one thing led to another, and . . . well, I'm completely in love with him.
Of course, the relationship has brought with it its own set of anxieties and insecurities, which I'm slowly but surely dealing with. He makes me want to get help for all of it, which is a good thing. He makes me feel like I *should* get help, and that doing so wouldn't be a complete waste of time. And people might hate me for it because of who his ex is, but I haven't been this happy in about 2 years, so I'm not going to apologize for it.
I don't really have much to say. So far, 2010 has been no better than 2009--in fact, I'd say it's been considerably worse.
I am nearing a year of unemployment, I still hate where I live, Jenny and I still have issues, my depression, anxiety, and PMDD are basically out of control, I had to have 2 root canals which was both painful and expensive, and my car was totaled last month.
The only bright spot in all of this has come in the form of a completely new--and completely unexpected--relationship. With a man named Corey.
He's 22, a student teacher, and basically one of the most amazing people I've ever met. Our meeting was kind of a fluke--we vaguely met last October at Homecoming, but he was engaged to one of my "sisters." We hadn't talked since then, and then his fiance broke up with him in August. I ran into him at WalMart (both of us were with mutual friends) the night it happened, and told him that I'd listen if he needed someone to talk to. To my surprise, he took me up on that offer, and one thing led to another, and . . . well, I'm completely in love with him.
Of course, the relationship has brought with it its own set of anxieties and insecurities, which I'm slowly but surely dealing with. He makes me want to get help for all of it, which is a good thing. He makes me feel like I *should* get help, and that doing so wouldn't be a complete waste of time. And people might hate me for it because of who his ex is, but I haven't been this happy in about 2 years, so I'm not going to apologize for it.