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i dont know what to do. Its like part of me wants to just drop it all and say come back. But then THE PRIDE in me wont let me. I just cant reason with myself that one of us is going to have to swallow our pride and fix things. I know its gonna be me but then when I think about it, i get SO fkn angry i feel like im going to explode. It just doesnt make sense to me how Easily others can be forgiven but youre acting like i killed your fkn cat. I mean you forgave the ones that ACTUALLY tried to kill your cat. The one that ACTUALLY tried to kill you. The one that fkd you over and played with your emotions and made you cry but that asshole is your HERO! oh did you forget that you wanted to have a restraining order on him? I didnt bc i was the one you called night after night when you were scared and crying I just dont get it. You WERE MY BEST FRIEND, my partner in crime. SISTERS. and yes, I did mess up. I made a bad judgement call and im sorry. I cant say it anymore.
noone can understand why im so mad. why im so hurt. In fact most of you cant even understand why i even want to fix this. BUt i cant explain what its like to lose your best friend. I dont even understand the conflicting emotions. or the bitterness. none of it makes sense to me. its just all so raw. i hate this bc i miss you so much.
noone can understand why im so mad. why im so hurt. In fact most of you cant even understand why i even want to fix this. BUt i cant explain what its like to lose your best friend. I dont even understand the conflicting emotions. or the bitterness. none of it makes sense to me. its just all so raw. i hate this bc i miss you so much.