It's Stupid, just a bunch of ranting, dont read unless you really want too.

[musicxxisxxlife]

I dont understand why I havn't cried yet, Its like I am living ina huge dream, I need to cry but I cant. WTF! I dont get it, It's like Takeing away an Acholoic's Beer, I cant deal with this. To know that I will never get to say that I was sorry for being dumb, and to know that He will never tell me everyhting is going to be okay again. CAuse he always did, no matter what "Everything will be okay cause I love you". To never be able to see those words again is CRUSHING ME. And usally, how do I deal with things? I cry ALOT! and now when I really need/want to get it out of my system, I cant? this is dumb.

ps. Thanks Meg and Karen, you have no Idea...=/ ♥