"Why does the tv control me with soundwaves?"
I just got done looking over my past entries and I must say I am so funny! I can't get enough of my comic relief. What I was real embarrassed about was my stupid giddiness over "the boy" situation. Remember that? Good lord its done and over with. I shall never allow myself to get so idiotic over a guy again(yeah, right!)But that entry stating the loss of my virginity was quite humorous.
I talked to my ex-friend today. She ended up sending me a message via myspace a few months ago saying that I was a good person and other sappy things. I called her out of...what exactly I'm not sure but I was moved to pick up the phone, dial her number, and have a conversation with her. I expected that to be the end of our "healing" process but a few weeks later she sent me another message saying we should maybe go eat sometime. I replied saying I'd call her soon and never did. Saturday was her birthday so I left her a comment on her page and left a message on her cell. We talked on the phone today and she said again we should get together. Now, I know I should absolutely positively not be giving her the time of day. I should have written a big "FUCK OFF!" in that message and sent it back to her with a shit eating grin on my face. I suppose the reason I'm milking this whole situation and flattering her is because I'm ridiculously amazed at the fact that she contacted me again after all she said. Even though I really shouldn't be because despite the harsh words that were exchanged I knew we would be speaking again. I FELT it in my gut. I know that we won't be the buddies that we used to be but things will be patched up. The ex-best friend (the other person in that triangle) has been caught on my myspace tracker TWICE in like a week period. I wonder how many times she's been to my page before? I haven't been to her page a single time since our break-up. I often wonder if the ex-best friend wants to swallow her pride and follow in the footsteps of the other friend and patch things up? Its amazing how things play out. Expect the unexpected! I'm still weary of her intentions though. They may be completely good genuine motives but they could also be something else. I already know the consqeuences of NOT finding out a person's motives so if we do eventually get together I need to ask her what's up. Why the friendliness suddenly?
I talked to my ex-friend today. She ended up sending me a message via myspace a few months ago saying that I was a good person and other sappy things. I called her out of...what exactly I'm not sure but I was moved to pick up the phone, dial her number, and have a conversation with her. I expected that to be the end of our "healing" process but a few weeks later she sent me another message saying we should maybe go eat sometime. I replied saying I'd call her soon and never did. Saturday was her birthday so I left her a comment on her page and left a message on her cell. We talked on the phone today and she said again we should get together. Now, I know I should absolutely positively not be giving her the time of day. I should have written a big "FUCK OFF!" in that message and sent it back to her with a shit eating grin on my face. I suppose the reason I'm milking this whole situation and flattering her is because I'm ridiculously amazed at the fact that she contacted me again after all she said. Even though I really shouldn't be because despite the harsh words that were exchanged I knew we would be speaking again. I FELT it in my gut. I know that we won't be the buddies that we used to be but things will be patched up. The ex-best friend (the other person in that triangle) has been caught on my myspace tracker TWICE in like a week period. I wonder how many times she's been to my page before? I haven't been to her page a single time since our break-up. I often wonder if the ex-best friend wants to swallow her pride and follow in the footsteps of the other friend and patch things up? Its amazing how things play out. Expect the unexpected! I'm still weary of her intentions though. They may be completely good genuine motives but they could also be something else. I already know the consqeuences of NOT finding out a person's motives so if we do eventually get together I need to ask her what's up. Why the friendliness suddenly?