why?
tmrw is the day. i have to tell my parents. i dont know what the "or else" is but i dont want to find out. i have to. finally, what ive been afraid of for so long is staring me in the face. rick said hed be there if i wanted him to be. im just glad that i have people to support you. im kind of upset that im pushed into this instead of stepping into it on my own. God's been good to me so far. ive prayed and hopefully ill be okay again. i dont know how the hell this seemed to be anybody elses fucking business. some things are better left alone and this is one of those things. can nobody else see that? whoever keeps wondering whats being done about it needs to realize nothing needs to be done about it. im ok and this was finally pushed into my past. i had finally really gotten over it and now it has to come back again. why? why does this had to keep getting harder? why cant it just go away!? i keep pushing why cant it just give????? WHY? WHY CANT I JUST FUCKING LIVE!?