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I miss Michael, but I don't want to.
Ever since his sister implied that he wanted to stay in hostels to meet girls, I've felt uneasy. I can't stop thinking about all the things he could be saying and doing that I'd never know or find out about. Honestly, if I think about it for more than a few minutes it makes me feel a little sick.
Maybe it's all for not, maybe he's missing me and wishing I was there.. but, I don't know. At the end of the day, I don't want to be made to feel the fool, missing someone who might be out gallivanting with whomever.
I like him, a lot. I really like him. But I guess I don't fully trust him not to hurt me. Whether or not it's fair to him, after everything with Alex, it is just emotionally easier this way -even if it is a bit sad.
This post makes me sound jealous and pathetic, but it's honest.
Ever since his sister implied that he wanted to stay in hostels to meet girls, I've felt uneasy. I can't stop thinking about all the things he could be saying and doing that I'd never know or find out about. Honestly, if I think about it for more than a few minutes it makes me feel a little sick.
Maybe it's all for not, maybe he's missing me and wishing I was there.. but, I don't know. At the end of the day, I don't want to be made to feel the fool, missing someone who might be out gallivanting with whomever.
I like him, a lot. I really like him. But I guess I don't fully trust him not to hurt me. Whether or not it's fair to him, after everything with Alex, it is just emotionally easier this way -even if it is a bit sad.
This post makes me sound jealous and pathetic, but it's honest.