My Return...
The minute the Jetblue airplane took off from the JFK airport, I started to cry. I looked like a little bitch. You know, as much as I complain about my family, I truly love them all. I had an awesome time in NYC, which is quite odd. Usually, when my whole family is together, we end up arguing about absolutely mundane things, but suprisingly, we didn't fight at all this Christmas.
As soon as I left New York, though, I fell into a severely heavy depression. Both my brother and my Mother are staying in NYC until Jan. 8th, so I'm home alone. Usually, this would be delightful, but it just feels so lonely now. I came to Miami and I immediately felt worthless. Honestly, I'm looking into transferring to SUNY Purchase for my Junior year. Granted, I've said this several times, but I mean it this time. I don't know if there's anything left in Miami for me except for my Mom and my friends. I know I can't live my life for my mother, but I love her alot and I can't leave her alone with my little brother. I know he would never do anything to hurt her, but he's really messy and he keeps getting into trouble. My mother is going to be seventy in Jan. and I really don't think she should have to deal with all of this at this time in her life. So blah, I'd like to transfer, but unless my mother intends on coming with me, I probably won't.
So... that's it. Right now, life is shitty, but it could definitely be alot shittier.
As soon as I left New York, though, I fell into a severely heavy depression. Both my brother and my Mother are staying in NYC until Jan. 8th, so I'm home alone. Usually, this would be delightful, but it just feels so lonely now. I came to Miami and I immediately felt worthless. Honestly, I'm looking into transferring to SUNY Purchase for my Junior year. Granted, I've said this several times, but I mean it this time. I don't know if there's anything left in Miami for me except for my Mom and my friends. I know I can't live my life for my mother, but I love her alot and I can't leave her alone with my little brother. I know he would never do anything to hurt her, but he's really messy and he keeps getting into trouble. My mother is going to be seventy in Jan. and I really don't think she should have to deal with all of this at this time in her life. So blah, I'd like to transfer, but unless my mother intends on coming with me, I probably won't.
So... that's it. Right now, life is shitty, but it could definitely be alot shittier.