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So this entry is probably going to sound rediculous or crazy or confusing, but I can't help it. I feel like I'm going to explode if I don't find a way to vent, soon.
I've been delaying an update because I've had so many supposedly "positive" things coming up and I really hoped I could (1) communicate the complexity and importance of these things, and (2) try to sound positive.
But as usual, everything that is supposed to be pleasant goes to shit.
Let me prove it....
THE HOUSE:
~ I didn't want to say it this way, but Dave and I bought our HOME.
~A beautiful Colonial in Hamburg on 1.4 acres that backs up to a creek that we have hundreds of feet of. 4 bedrooms, built in 1925, 2250 square feet, beautiful. Not a starter home, like a permanant home for good.
~We were supposed to move in MARCH TWENTY FIRST!!!! Yes that was ypted correctly-- 8 weeks ago
~The banker we got (via our realtor) has fucked up EVERYTHING that's cod hsi desk. He's lied to me dirctly, lied to Dave (though he denies it but the rest of us see it) and lied t omy realtor. He refuses to return my phone calls and even the calls of oru lawyer and our relator. he leaves messages adn then refuses to answer back so he doesn't have to talk t ous directly because he knows I'm on the warpath.
~We've already paid 5000 and have the rest ($12,000 dollars more) for the down payment in the bank, were approved for 290 THOUSAND DOLLARS (not that we'd ever do that and screw ourselves like the rest of moronic america has done), and have fantastic credit. So obviously it's not us that's the problem.
~ Getting this far took working 3 jobs between the two of us, cost me my leave of absence from Childrens which would have allowed me to do so much better at school and instead of sail through maybe have the sleep I needed to LEARN anything, and has put our current living situation at risk and wasted oru time and money so far. And you KNOW i have NO TIME and therefore NO PATIENCE for the wasting of it
~ The reason why I didn't update about this was because it was super important for me, and I couldn't be happy with breaking the news unless I got to be excited and tell the whole (happy part of) the story. But now I feel like I have to vent and have to tell people, because soon we're SUPPOSEDLY moving in, and I'm frustrated my chance to be happy got ruined.
~ The latest problem si that we were told LAST WEEK that we would sign the final paperwork by the end of this week. But of course our banker called today and told us there's another huge problem. Great. Wonderful. So much for taking the long weekend to get started on cleaning and measuring. So much for being happy for ten seconds.
~oh, one example, just ONE example of the problems we've had over the last 8 weeks: we even got "dinged" via the patriot act. THE GOVERNMENT HELD UP OUR MORTGAGE TO INVESTIGATE OUR CASE!!! Want to know why it was via the patriot act? Because I CHANGE MY FUCKING NAME AFTER I GOT MARRIED AND THEY BEHAVED AS IF IT WAS SUSPICIOUS!!! What the fuck.
As usual. Like everything else.
GRADUATION:
I graduated a week ago. I should be relieved and happy, but I haven't had six second of peace since it happened. want to know why? Because my advisor (the cause of my 2 year degree becoming 4) has screwed at least 4 of us over and is trying to threaten us that she can make our graduation not count. Once again, it's much more complicated than I have time to explain right now, but it's so demanding and rediculous and unfair. All this work and busting my hump and once again I'm being punished.
DAVE:
To top it off, the worst part is that we got bad news today regarding Dave's health. It's his buisness, so I certainly don't want to air it on LJ, but for anyone who knows about the cancer scare we had when we were first dating (the scare which they have been telling us for a year was remaining benign) has reared it's ugly head again. Surgery, at minimum. It will be Dave's second surgery since we got married.
And I haven't even gotten time to go to the FUCKING DOCTOR ONE TIME. Let alone dentist or contacts that I haven't had time tgo get for TWO YEARS, endocrinologist, physical therapy, etc etc etc.
Once again he's going through trauma and he needs his wife 100% and I'm being pulled in 50 negative directions that suck all the energy out of me. This is why I'm about to lose it. I just want to sit still and focus and work on this together but look what we're in the middle of? he deserves to be able to handle this without this other stuff stressing us out.
Thanks for listening guys
I've been delaying an update because I've had so many supposedly "positive" things coming up and I really hoped I could (1) communicate the complexity and importance of these things, and (2) try to sound positive.
But as usual, everything that is supposed to be pleasant goes to shit.
Let me prove it....
THE HOUSE:
~ I didn't want to say it this way, but Dave and I bought our HOME.
~A beautiful Colonial in Hamburg on 1.4 acres that backs up to a creek that we have hundreds of feet of. 4 bedrooms, built in 1925, 2250 square feet, beautiful. Not a starter home, like a permanant home for good.
~We were supposed to move in MARCH TWENTY FIRST!!!! Yes that was ypted correctly-- 8 weeks ago
~The banker we got (via our realtor) has fucked up EVERYTHING that's cod hsi desk. He's lied to me dirctly, lied to Dave (though he denies it but the rest of us see it) and lied t omy realtor. He refuses to return my phone calls and even the calls of oru lawyer and our relator. he leaves messages adn then refuses to answer back so he doesn't have to talk t ous directly because he knows I'm on the warpath.
~We've already paid 5000 and have the rest ($12,000 dollars more) for the down payment in the bank, were approved for 290 THOUSAND DOLLARS (not that we'd ever do that and screw ourselves like the rest of moronic america has done), and have fantastic credit. So obviously it's not us that's the problem.
~ Getting this far took working 3 jobs between the two of us, cost me my leave of absence from Childrens which would have allowed me to do so much better at school and instead of sail through maybe have the sleep I needed to LEARN anything, and has put our current living situation at risk and wasted oru time and money so far. And you KNOW i have NO TIME and therefore NO PATIENCE for the wasting of it
~ The reason why I didn't update about this was because it was super important for me, and I couldn't be happy with breaking the news unless I got to be excited and tell the whole (happy part of) the story. But now I feel like I have to vent and have to tell people, because soon we're SUPPOSEDLY moving in, and I'm frustrated my chance to be happy got ruined.
~ The latest problem si that we were told LAST WEEK that we would sign the final paperwork by the end of this week. But of course our banker called today and told us there's another huge problem. Great. Wonderful. So much for taking the long weekend to get started on cleaning and measuring. So much for being happy for ten seconds.
~oh, one example, just ONE example of the problems we've had over the last 8 weeks: we even got "dinged" via the patriot act. THE GOVERNMENT HELD UP OUR MORTGAGE TO INVESTIGATE OUR CASE!!! Want to know why it was via the patriot act? Because I CHANGE MY FUCKING NAME AFTER I GOT MARRIED AND THEY BEHAVED AS IF IT WAS SUSPICIOUS!!! What the fuck.
As usual. Like everything else.
GRADUATION:
I graduated a week ago. I should be relieved and happy, but I haven't had six second of peace since it happened. want to know why? Because my advisor (the cause of my 2 year degree becoming 4) has screwed at least 4 of us over and is trying to threaten us that she can make our graduation not count. Once again, it's much more complicated than I have time to explain right now, but it's so demanding and rediculous and unfair. All this work and busting my hump and once again I'm being punished.
DAVE:
To top it off, the worst part is that we got bad news today regarding Dave's health. It's his buisness, so I certainly don't want to air it on LJ, but for anyone who knows about the cancer scare we had when we were first dating (the scare which they have been telling us for a year was remaining benign) has reared it's ugly head again. Surgery, at minimum. It will be Dave's second surgery since we got married.
And I haven't even gotten time to go to the FUCKING DOCTOR ONE TIME. Let alone dentist or contacts that I haven't had time tgo get for TWO YEARS, endocrinologist, physical therapy, etc etc etc.
Once again he's going through trauma and he needs his wife 100% and I'm being pulled in 50 negative directions that suck all the energy out of me. This is why I'm about to lose it. I just want to sit still and focus and work on this together but look what we're in the middle of? he deserves to be able to handle this without this other stuff stressing us out.
Thanks for listening guys