to cut or not to cut.... that is the question
I'm trying to decide what to do about my hair. I have been growing it for years, waiting to donate it to Locks of Love once it was as long as it could get. I made sure to keep it long until after the wedding, then I was going to cut it. Then I was busy, so I planned to wait until after my birthday and do it as a 25th birthday thing. Then things got busy, and it's now Christmas and I need to get going!
I want it shorter because (a) I want to donate it (b) long hair and hats do NOT go together, lemme tell you, and it'd be nice to be able to wear a hat over winter (c) my shower and prep time will be cut enormously, if I got a shoulder- length bob, even if I had to straighten it.
However, I am getting emotional about it!!! I don't know if I"m PMSing or if it's just normal. I know last time I got my hair cut I wanted to cry, but didn't. It sounds stupid, because it's "just hair" but I have been very attached to it since I was growing it for a purpose. I realize it will grow back, but I'm scared that if I cut it I"ll wind up wishing I would have waited. I don't trust that I'll look older (which I'm also hoping for), and I don't trust that I'll find a style I like on my face. I eventually want it short-short, but a shoulder-length bob will be a good start so I have time to get used to having to do shorter hair before I really cut it cut it.
Why am I being so nervous about this?!?! It's gotta be PMS.
I'm also freaking out because I was going to go tomorrow to get it cut, but feel this urgency to do it today, even though I"m emotional about it. But to go today means stopping what I"m doing and spending the afternoon at the salon taking pictures...... whereas tomorrow I'm already going to be out in the Southtowns for my nephew's play.
I think I'm so overwhelmed, too, because I"m freaking out about work, school, and getting ready for Christmas.
I need to just finalize all this school bullshit. I MADE my advisor sit down and tell me exactly where I stand. Apparantly most of the class (including myself) will be gettng incompletes, and she said she'd change my grade in January. It sounds good, right? My impression would be that if I already have an incomplete, why ruin christmas by busying myself with a few more days of clinicals? It's not like it'll change my grade or anything. However, if I don't do clinicals up until the very last second, will she hold it against me? Is the reason I'm "ok" based on the fact that she assumes I will "keep trying"? Because she told us we CANNOT do clinicals over break, yet assigned me hours over break. I can't tell (and trust me I've asked her 40 different ways what she wants), and while clinicals seem like a waste of time at this point, I'm scared NOT to do them in case she holds it against me.
If I DON'T do clinicals today, tomorrow, Saturday, Monday, and Tuesday like I had planned, I could get ready for Christmas and catch up on everythnig that's distracting me. I have to make-up time next semester anyway, right? I could go christmas shopping, put out decorations (for a whopping two weeks, wow), send cards, etc etc.
I don't know what I"m doing. My brain is in 1000 places. I think I need to just get off of LJ, do a few online clinical hours to make myself feel better, straighten my hair for tonight and in prep for the haircut tomorrow, and pack stuff away around the apartment so that I can put up Christmas deco.
Why is there still something in the back of my mind that is bothering me, then?????
I want it shorter because (a) I want to donate it (b) long hair and hats do NOT go together, lemme tell you, and it'd be nice to be able to wear a hat over winter (c) my shower and prep time will be cut enormously, if I got a shoulder- length bob, even if I had to straighten it.
However, I am getting emotional about it!!! I don't know if I"m PMSing or if it's just normal. I know last time I got my hair cut I wanted to cry, but didn't. It sounds stupid, because it's "just hair" but I have been very attached to it since I was growing it for a purpose. I realize it will grow back, but I'm scared that if I cut it I"ll wind up wishing I would have waited. I don't trust that I'll look older (which I'm also hoping for), and I don't trust that I'll find a style I like on my face. I eventually want it short-short, but a shoulder-length bob will be a good start so I have time to get used to having to do shorter hair before I really cut it cut it.
Why am I being so nervous about this?!?! It's gotta be PMS.
I'm also freaking out because I was going to go tomorrow to get it cut, but feel this urgency to do it today, even though I"m emotional about it. But to go today means stopping what I"m doing and spending the afternoon at the salon taking pictures...... whereas tomorrow I'm already going to be out in the Southtowns for my nephew's play.
I think I'm so overwhelmed, too, because I"m freaking out about work, school, and getting ready for Christmas.
I need to just finalize all this school bullshit. I MADE my advisor sit down and tell me exactly where I stand. Apparantly most of the class (including myself) will be gettng incompletes, and she said she'd change my grade in January. It sounds good, right? My impression would be that if I already have an incomplete, why ruin christmas by busying myself with a few more days of clinicals? It's not like it'll change my grade or anything. However, if I don't do clinicals up until the very last second, will she hold it against me? Is the reason I'm "ok" based on the fact that she assumes I will "keep trying"? Because she told us we CANNOT do clinicals over break, yet assigned me hours over break. I can't tell (and trust me I've asked her 40 different ways what she wants), and while clinicals seem like a waste of time at this point, I'm scared NOT to do them in case she holds it against me.
If I DON'T do clinicals today, tomorrow, Saturday, Monday, and Tuesday like I had planned, I could get ready for Christmas and catch up on everythnig that's distracting me. I have to make-up time next semester anyway, right? I could go christmas shopping, put out decorations (for a whopping two weeks, wow), send cards, etc etc.
I don't know what I"m doing. My brain is in 1000 places. I think I need to just get off of LJ, do a few online clinical hours to make myself feel better, straighten my hair for tonight and in prep for the haircut tomorrow, and pack stuff away around the apartment so that I can put up Christmas deco.
Why is there still something in the back of my mind that is bothering me, then?????