what to do, what to do
I spent a good part of today cleaning my kitchen, and I have to say that there gives me no greater satisfaction on this earth than that of a clean kitchen, bathroom, whatever. My chest gets a nice swelling of pride when I look and see that my labor has created something so germ free, and believe me if you knew who I lived with that would make a whole lot of sense,. So as I was doing this I got to thinking once again about my place in life. Have I gotten to where I want to be, not really. I am still searching for that great radio job that will get me the happiness I feel I am looking for. But I made a promise to myself and a friend of mine that I would look for the positive each day I am alive. So here I find that the positive is I am still young enough to get that radio job and still have the know how to get it done. Question before me is do I still want to stay here in WA.
The other thing that is getting to me just a bit is my age. This May I will be turning 33, nothing terrible but if you think about it most people who want to be married or start a family usually do so right around my age or younger. Now I am still uncertain if I want to start a family but it would be nice to have a woman in my life. Being with Kye those few months was very nice and I have to say I was happy with her around. She is in Colorado now and I only speak with her through written letters. I had taken Scott to the Emerald City Comic Con the other day and that got me to thinking that maybe I should find myself a group to get involved with. Not so much be the president of but just a writing group where I can get new ideas for my poetry and maybe start writing some short stories.
I look at doctors, lawers, people like that and say to myself "I could have done that" but I choose a different path, and yes there have been pot holes, speed bumps, and major regrets but if I look forward to the rest of my road that has not been completed I know that with the proper help and the smarts to keep my head on straight I will be able to ride on that road smooth as silk
The other thing that is getting to me just a bit is my age. This May I will be turning 33, nothing terrible but if you think about it most people who want to be married or start a family usually do so right around my age or younger. Now I am still uncertain if I want to start a family but it would be nice to have a woman in my life. Being with Kye those few months was very nice and I have to say I was happy with her around. She is in Colorado now and I only speak with her through written letters. I had taken Scott to the Emerald City Comic Con the other day and that got me to thinking that maybe I should find myself a group to get involved with. Not so much be the president of but just a writing group where I can get new ideas for my poetry and maybe start writing some short stories.
I look at doctors, lawers, people like that and say to myself "I could have done that" but I choose a different path, and yes there have been pot holes, speed bumps, and major regrets but if I look forward to the rest of my road that has not been completed I know that with the proper help and the smarts to keep my head on straight I will be able to ride on that road smooth as silk