Lots of thinking, no results
Many of us spend our lives just walking the steps, going to work getting a paycheck and meeting the necessary requirements like paying the rent, getting food to live, and, if we can, get ourselves out of debt. I can safely say that most of my life has been lived in a bit of a cloud, never sure what the hell I want to do with my life. Once upon a time I had thought the idea of being a rock star was my calling since I was so drawn to music. The sounds, the feel, the emotion of it is like crack to me. It took me many years to understand that I wasn't meant for such things, so I have put that on the hobbies shelf and now I just play my guitar when I feel like it without the pressure, though there are times when I listen to some songs that make me wish I was a more prominent player...WHICH brings me to my point.
As I said I am living in a bit of a cloudy state of being, hating all of my jobs and never being able to keep any of them for longer than 6 months. I am the exact product of what can and does happen to those that do not further their education. Look at my brother Kip. He attained his masters degree and is now working for a good company as a computer debugger. Point here is that he worked hard for his education and is getting paid what he is worth, where as I have little education and getting paid what I am worth. Now I have had some time to think about this and have realized that I have to get that education that I was seeking 10 years ago, I need to be making more than $1000 a month because honestly no one could live like this. A great point was made to me in that I have to make myself do the things I don't want to do in order to achieve the things I do want. I had made the realization about 4 years ago that I wanted to be in radio, then I got to thinking....am I doing this because I love it or am I doing this for the glory and fame of being a radio DJ?
The answer..it is about 80% that I love being on the radio for the experience of just being there and the satisfaction of giving the people what they want, making people happy because there is a reason they are tuned to the station I am working at regardless if it KGRG or KSER they want to hear what we have to offer and I am the guy that is giving it to them. Now the other 20% is in fact wanting to be someone of some recognition. I mean what the hell, my whole life I have been living in the shadow of either someone else or just behind my own shadow fearing my confidence. I had initially got into radio as a fusion of my love for music and romance of being on air. I have thought about this for some time and it was today, while cleaning my filthy room, I had come to this realization and you know there really is nothing wrong with wanting to be recognized for what it is you do. So I want a little fame in my life, hell if I cannot be honest with myself how can I live with myself right??
As I said I am living in a bit of a cloudy state of being, hating all of my jobs and never being able to keep any of them for longer than 6 months. I am the exact product of what can and does happen to those that do not further their education. Look at my brother Kip. He attained his masters degree and is now working for a good company as a computer debugger. Point here is that he worked hard for his education and is getting paid what he is worth, where as I have little education and getting paid what I am worth. Now I have had some time to think about this and have realized that I have to get that education that I was seeking 10 years ago, I need to be making more than $1000 a month because honestly no one could live like this. A great point was made to me in that I have to make myself do the things I don't want to do in order to achieve the things I do want. I had made the realization about 4 years ago that I wanted to be in radio, then I got to thinking....am I doing this because I love it or am I doing this for the glory and fame of being a radio DJ?
The answer..it is about 80% that I love being on the radio for the experience of just being there and the satisfaction of giving the people what they want, making people happy because there is a reason they are tuned to the station I am working at regardless if it KGRG or KSER they want to hear what we have to offer and I am the guy that is giving it to them. Now the other 20% is in fact wanting to be someone of some recognition. I mean what the hell, my whole life I have been living in the shadow of either someone else or just behind my own shadow fearing my confidence. I had initially got into radio as a fusion of my love for music and romance of being on air. I have thought about this for some time and it was today, while cleaning my filthy room, I had come to this realization and you know there really is nothing wrong with wanting to be recognized for what it is you do. So I want a little fame in my life, hell if I cannot be honest with myself how can I live with myself right??