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I went to the movies today. It was fun, I guess. It ended up being just me, Emily, and her boyfriend, Ben. Nobody ended up being able to go, since my parents made me change it to 2:30. And u know what? My sister ended up spending the night somewhere else, and I didn't have to babysit afterall! Ahh! Well, yeah the movie was really funny! I liked it. And we went to Piza Hut after.
It was fun, it was just kind of awkward. I kinda felt like the third wheel. They are totally cool about not leaving me out, and they don't ignore me or anything, its just, I feel like I'm interrupting or something...if that makes sense. Its not like, "oh, I wish I had a boyfriend" or anything like that. I've never in my life complained about not having a b/f, b/c, that's rediculous. 'having a boyfriend' is nothing. What makes it special is being with someone that you genuinely care about. I don't want another boyfriend, at least not right now. So, I'm totally not jealous, I'm really happy for both of them, b/c I know how happy it makes you to be with someone that you care about that much. I just don't know what to do when I'm hanging out with them. I feel so awkward.
I kinda feel bad now tho...b/c, this is probably how Emily felt when me and Vincent were hanging out...its probably how everybody felt. That's probably why everyone was saying we were leaving them out. Even though I wasn't doing it on purpose, it makes people feel awkward. I guess you just don't understand until you're in the situation yourself.
<3 Joy
It was fun, it was just kind of awkward. I kinda felt like the third wheel. They are totally cool about not leaving me out, and they don't ignore me or anything, its just, I feel like I'm interrupting or something...if that makes sense. Its not like, "oh, I wish I had a boyfriend" or anything like that. I've never in my life complained about not having a b/f, b/c, that's rediculous. 'having a boyfriend' is nothing. What makes it special is being with someone that you genuinely care about. I don't want another boyfriend, at least not right now. So, I'm totally not jealous, I'm really happy for both of them, b/c I know how happy it makes you to be with someone that you care about that much. I just don't know what to do when I'm hanging out with them. I feel so awkward.
I kinda feel bad now tho...b/c, this is probably how Emily felt when me and Vincent were hanging out...its probably how everybody felt. That's probably why everyone was saying we were leaving them out. Even though I wasn't doing it on purpose, it makes people feel awkward. I guess you just don't understand until you're in the situation yourself.
<3 Joy