AHHHHHHHH!
Im so pissed right now. I dont even know where to start. Everytime I begin to think things are good, once again I mess up. All I ever do is mess up. I never do anything right according to my parents. Im about to snap. I seriously dont know what to do anymore. My parents expect me to effing read their minds, to know what they want from me, to be perfect...NEWS FLASH!!! I cant do anything of that. I was supposed to look for a job today. I was out for about 3 or 4 hours looking. Went to about 10 different places and got 1 application, 1 "come back in about a week", one application that I did on a comp in albertsons, and 1 that could very well be a 98% chance of getting. I was happy. I thought my parents would be happy. But were they? NOPE! Because I slept til like 12 and left about 1, I got yelled out. Becasue I only got 3, I got yelled at. My dad expects me to like wake up at 9 and go out ALLLLLLLLLLL day looking and finding like 15 applications. Sorry I guess thats not good enough. And the one that I have like a 98% chance of getting which I thought he would be happy, he hates and doesnt want me to do it. A jobs a job, I didnt think he cared what it was. They expect me to do things around the house without being asked.... ask me what to do and ill do it. How am I supposed to know what needs to be done if they dont ASK. WHAT THE HELL DO THEY WANT FROM ME! And because of it all Something that I had been planning on doing for like months, I cant do now. Why? Because I babysit the next day. They want so much for me to grow up and learn, how do they expect me to learn if they dont let me. Let me go out the night before I babysit, Let me show them that I can still get up in time and do a damn good job, Let me show them that I know what im doing, that im not 5 anymore. I hate it. Nothing I do is good enough. I dunno...im seriously gunna shoot someone, I havnt bene this mad in a long time....Not healthy.