and how will I feel tomorrow?
I think i need to find something that i have been looking for since jr. high. And i refuse to believe I'm the only girl with this emptiness. I tried to be more devoted, and i guess i should keep on trying, but for some reason it just doesn't feel like its working. I feel drained and frustrated. Maybe it has something to do with it being the middle of december and it being 82 degrees out. or in a more likely scenario, I am off the mark in some way. sigh. Sometimes i wish i could just stop thinking, and perhaps that would be easier. I just don't know. I think that if i write anymore in this, it will just be confusion. so instead i'll just write blah blah blah and i think i am covered for my lj update being boring enough. bed time.