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Ah...the new year. Its weird to think that a year has went by allready. I was just thinking about how many things have changed over the past 12 months...its crazy. My group of friends have changed a lot, i love all my friends dearly but its wierd how things kinda go in cycles. I guess i'm not too worried, things happen for a reason and its not like i never talk to anyone. i don't know if that makes sense but it makes sense in my mind so deal with it. :):)
The other night...i had a lot of energy and couldn't sleep but i started day dreaming. I love my parents but they are driving me CRAZY. I don't know, I really just kinda want to start moving on. Small little things that shouldn't bother me are driving me nuts. I guess i want to start living my own life that isn't shadowed over by my parents...mainly mother. I was also dreaming of my dorm room...and how life will be so much different. I don't know for the better or for the worse, but its change...and i really just want something to change. It sounds dumb but i'm really starting to just get bored with the mundane life. Not to say that its not fun and exciting. Its just the same fun and exciting. Hum...i'm almost confusing myself.
I know one thing that i'm so glad that i did the past year was get my job and the Five and Diner. I know i complained about if for a while...sorry to all of those that i've complained to...but i'm really starting to love it. And the best part of it is all the friends i'm making there. its weird how you can make friends so fast. I love the way these 30,40 somethings actually listen to me as if i were their equal. They care and its really refreshing not to be referred to as some dumb teenager. And its awesome to act stupdi with some of the people there, too.
I'm going to follow the crowd....For the next year i have a number of different goal. i want to start loosening up...sometimes i can so AAAHHH and its just not fun :) not too mention stressful. I'm going to attempt to bring up my chemistry skills and try not to hate Schwartzberg as much. I will also become a better person overall. Be nicer to those i'm not necessarly "nice" too, loose weight, and smile more.
I think thats the biggest thing that i've learned the past year. Just to smile. Life sucks sometimes and not smiling and laughing just makes it worse. I didn't like being sad so much the past year....this year i'll give myself only a few days to be pissy and crabby (we'll see if that happens). Hum we'll i'm probally boring the crap out those that are reading this. So i'm going to go back to making a cd. Have a wonderful night everyone.
hugs
The other night...i had a lot of energy and couldn't sleep but i started day dreaming. I love my parents but they are driving me CRAZY. I don't know, I really just kinda want to start moving on. Small little things that shouldn't bother me are driving me nuts. I guess i want to start living my own life that isn't shadowed over by my parents...mainly mother. I was also dreaming of my dorm room...and how life will be so much different. I don't know for the better or for the worse, but its change...and i really just want something to change. It sounds dumb but i'm really starting to just get bored with the mundane life. Not to say that its not fun and exciting. Its just the same fun and exciting. Hum...i'm almost confusing myself.
I know one thing that i'm so glad that i did the past year was get my job and the Five and Diner. I know i complained about if for a while...sorry to all of those that i've complained to...but i'm really starting to love it. And the best part of it is all the friends i'm making there. its weird how you can make friends so fast. I love the way these 30,40 somethings actually listen to me as if i were their equal. They care and its really refreshing not to be referred to as some dumb teenager. And its awesome to act stupdi with some of the people there, too.
I'm going to follow the crowd....For the next year i have a number of different goal. i want to start loosening up...sometimes i can so AAAHHH and its just not fun :) not too mention stressful. I'm going to attempt to bring up my chemistry skills and try not to hate Schwartzberg as much. I will also become a better person overall. Be nicer to those i'm not necessarly "nice" too, loose weight, and smile more.
I think thats the biggest thing that i've learned the past year. Just to smile. Life sucks sometimes and not smiling and laughing just makes it worse. I didn't like being sad so much the past year....this year i'll give myself only a few days to be pissy and crabby (we'll see if that happens). Hum we'll i'm probally boring the crap out those that are reading this. So i'm going to go back to making a cd. Have a wonderful night everyone.
hugs