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Hello wonderful livejournal world. It is the beginnig of a wondeful summer. I spent the day over at Jason's (stacy's boytoy) house with the wonderful girls. It was a lot of fun, i forgot why i stopped hanging out with them. We swam and talked a lot. Its going to be really weird...Jason is leaving on Tuesday for georgia...for boot camp. I know stacy is going to have a horrible time w/o jason, and i can't believe that he's actually going to be in the guard. I asked him why he wanted to go into the guard. He said, that he looks at the other country's and see all the people w/o any freedom and then he looks here and sees everything he has and he just wants to pay the country back. That really hit me. It seems so surreal that he is leaving...that he will eventually be in a humvee (sp) being a sniper. Creepy
So i was thinking...and this is going to sound all emo and depressed and what not. But i'm really starting to get lonely. Not friend lonely or anything like that...God knows how lucky i am w/ the friends that i have. I just really want to...not fall in love...but fall in a hard crush??? maybe? And have something work out. I really want a meaningful and lovely relationship. I want somebody to fight for me. I want to have someone that i can not stay mad at. But then again...relationships w/ me don't normally go so well, so maybe i should just stay single. (thinks back and chuckles) It just would be nice sometimes to have someone thinking of you.
Whew that emo alert is done. So i'm definelty chilling out listening to some wonderful Gansta' music. Tehe i'm so white...except now i'm getting tan! Wahoo for a burn turning to tan!!
So my goals for this summer is to figure out what college i want to go to and the area what i want to go into. RIght now i'm thinking communications and writing, but i'm waiting for that to change soon. :)
Wow so this is a long entry...for me expecially. I hope you all are having a fabulous evening
So i was thinking...and this is going to sound all emo and depressed and what not. But i'm really starting to get lonely. Not friend lonely or anything like that...God knows how lucky i am w/ the friends that i have. I just really want to...not fall in love...but fall in a hard crush??? maybe? And have something work out. I really want a meaningful and lovely relationship. I want somebody to fight for me. I want to have someone that i can not stay mad at. But then again...relationships w/ me don't normally go so well, so maybe i should just stay single. (thinks back and chuckles) It just would be nice sometimes to have someone thinking of you.
Whew that emo alert is done. So i'm definelty chilling out listening to some wonderful Gansta' music. Tehe i'm so white...except now i'm getting tan! Wahoo for a burn turning to tan!!
So my goals for this summer is to figure out what college i want to go to and the area what i want to go into. RIght now i'm thinking communications and writing, but i'm waiting for that to change soon. :)
Wow so this is a long entry...for me expecially. I hope you all are having a fabulous evening