knock it down
often you look back, proud of the things you have done and gone through. not often you remember the exact feelings you had going through them. today i went back for the 36th council camp. being part of the 32nds and training the 33rds, it was definitely a moment with many feelings.
that feeling when everyone is really suffering together and your physical limits are pushed to its utmost boundary sent a sense of familiar shiver down me. but you know, at that point you all are together, you feed of that feeling of togetherness and put the mind over matter.
i must have been an absolute bitch being the head of the training i/cs, instilling fear, shouting at the top of my voice, knocking them down, making them hang. but i look back and, it was indeed an experience and worth it.
i think i needed to be back there today, to be reminded of the things i did and find some comfort amidst my drifting self lately.
