die die die mother fucking DIE!!!!!!

[musiciangrl]

Why the hell do people who should never be parents decide to have kids!? why the fucking hell!!! if my mom hates me SO much then why the fuck was she bitching and crying and fighting it when i tried to live with my dad? why? and why does she do the self-righteous act thing and pretend to be "so hurt by my cruelty towards her and the rest of the family?" Cruelty? if i was trying to be cruel then they'd have shot their own heads off by now. if i was trying to be cruel then they would fucking know it! speaking my mind isn't "cruel" it's fucking speakign my mind!!!! and then i get punished for it. at least i attempt to lower the tension, at least i don't go around threatening to call social services b/c i don't get to eat pizza for dinner (my sister did that). and at least i don't sit on my ass all day and play people off of each other (like brother dearest). i try so hard to not piss them off b/c i know that i'll be the one who pays for it. but it just ticks me off so much the things that they do and so i tell them that. i get punished for speakign my mind at telling them that they aren't perfect. that's litterally what i said too! i said "i know i'm not perfect! no one is! i'm not and you're not! no one is!" thats all i said and they fucking blew up! i wasn't even yelling! i just said it in a tired sorta voice, the one that i use when i'm tired of something. not snotty or "i don't care what you think..." or anything like that. just a tired sort of "listen, i'm tired so lets just calm down and get through this..." sorta voice.

i can't stand another 2 years here. why don't they shoot me and get it over with? it would make everyones life so much easyer.

but i don't even care anymore.

i'm done