I don't think I'm ready...
To face the rest of this semester. As much as I am done with the bitchiness of my mother this weekend, I am scared to go back to JSC tomorrow morning.
First is the madness that is Danceland this week, so I will be in the theater most of the time and getting ready. Reharsals, light plots, makeup, etc. Oi.
Second is the looming finals and assignments that need to be done. I was so ready to get it all done this week, and I went dicking around instead and got nothing done.
Lastly, I am afraid to go back, especially wth the way my soon to be ex-roomate and I left for this break. I'm hoping that a lot of it will just blow over so we can finish these last few weeks in peace, but then I think about or upcoming mediated conversation, and it gets me nervous. Plus the fact that she thnks that we can not be friends after this hurts me. This is why I usally keep things bottled in, that's why I hate confrontations. With my track record, they usually end bad, and it just hurts me more. Plus I have a good feeling that that small favor I asked (that I can have my room for Danceland weekend), is gonna be moot. GAH!
I don't know how I am going to last these next few weeks of this semester, then to come back to my mother who is Mrs. Bitch Supreme at the moment, becuase of her insecurities, it's just crazy. It's the fact that I can not find my happy-medium and that I feel that It's going to be very hard to relieve myself of my issues, and to blow off whatever steam I have.
So let's sum up:
1. Dancelend= Hell Week. Plus I have a good feeling that I am gonna get my period. Fantastic.
2. Stressed about Finals and reports due soon with no time to do them
3. My roomate hates me and I am not sure how this is gonna play out, espeically with Danceland.
*starts to pull out hair*
Lord, please give me the strength to last these few weeks without losing my grip. Kep me grounded so I can do what I need to do, without hurting myself, or others. Or without cutting a bitch.
Amen
First is the madness that is Danceland this week, so I will be in the theater most of the time and getting ready. Reharsals, light plots, makeup, etc. Oi.
Second is the looming finals and assignments that need to be done. I was so ready to get it all done this week, and I went dicking around instead and got nothing done.
Lastly, I am afraid to go back, especially wth the way my soon to be ex-roomate and I left for this break. I'm hoping that a lot of it will just blow over so we can finish these last few weeks in peace, but then I think about or upcoming mediated conversation, and it gets me nervous. Plus the fact that she thnks that we can not be friends after this hurts me. This is why I usally keep things bottled in, that's why I hate confrontations. With my track record, they usually end bad, and it just hurts me more. Plus I have a good feeling that that small favor I asked (that I can have my room for Danceland weekend), is gonna be moot. GAH!
I don't know how I am going to last these next few weeks of this semester, then to come back to my mother who is Mrs. Bitch Supreme at the moment, becuase of her insecurities, it's just crazy. It's the fact that I can not find my happy-medium and that I feel that It's going to be very hard to relieve myself of my issues, and to blow off whatever steam I have.
So let's sum up:
1. Dancelend= Hell Week. Plus I have a good feeling that I am gonna get my period. Fantastic.
2. Stressed about Finals and reports due soon with no time to do them
3. My roomate hates me and I am not sure how this is gonna play out, espeically with Danceland.
*starts to pull out hair*
Lord, please give me the strength to last these few weeks without losing my grip. Kep me grounded so I can do what I need to do, without hurting myself, or others. Or without cutting a bitch.
Amen